To borrow a line from a song " I've been lately thinking about my life time" life can be surprising at times where a path leads you.
There was a time in my life I had great struggles in being lonely and wondered when in Thundera would life be better again. One lesson I had to accept grudingly on my sister's passing I was so hurt and angry at the world and evil fear cruelty " entered" my world.
I did lot of writing venting out lot of confusing feelings on new lesson of evil.
Later on slowly I realized that anger wasn't healthy so I read a lot on healing and some books that explained on grief loss themes. One of the important steps is take control of your life. So I went to college later on. I learned on newer lesson of different kind is Spriutality and wellness and some writing to continute my healing in life. I was still scared then of outside world.
Few years later, I was holding in so much ( fear based not anger theme) that I became sick with an illness in 2005. I was still afraid of people's Reactions on my goals ideas etc. People comments HURTS me and " echoes" horribly to no end.
By having these " setbacks- anger and fear based Spells" hanging over my head I wondered what was the " power that broke the spell" two things Love and Sprituality...
My Spruital Guide Gerri and two of my first Spritual Teachers My sister Mary and Johnny Denver have been guiding me through the stories I have written -- LOVE is the way to LIVE in your life. They have been very supportive understanding throughout my trails of life and SENT SIGNS to assure me that they are loyal no matter what. THAT blows my mind ( I'll have write a blog on signs -- hheellooo are you paying attention??)
I'm starting to accept the Here comes the Sun ( happier times) and MOST importantly some answers or goals starting to happen. Embracing the healing lessons that are coming too. This road has been challenging at times and have become stronger and wiser person. I am ready for the " new chapter" thanks to my Spritual team and and new friends in Sparkpeople who is willing to join in in my journey of healing.