Thursday, April 18, 2013
I debated whether or not to post this. I decided to post it because at this very moment I can talk about it and I really need the encouragement. My 16 year old daughter is having kidney failure. 3 years ago she was diagnosed with Hodgkin's Lymphoma. She had treatment and has been in remission for 19 months. The chemotherapy is a result of her having Fanconi Syndrome. She was suppose to recover from it, but she never did.
We took her to the doctor on Tuesday and they broke the news that her kidneys are failing. She will be on Dialysis 3 days a week. She is also being placed on the Kidney transplant waiting list.
I am devastated! Yes, I knew it was a "slight" chance that this would happen, but all I was focusing on back then is saving my (then 13 year old) child's life. You do what you have to do. We were told that the chances were slim, so we went with it. Would I take that chance if I had it to do all over again, YES I would! My point is, now that those slight chances has turned into 100%, I am still emotionally drained.
I find myself eating out of control for the past 2 days. I am still exercising because I feel so much better whenever I do. I feel horrible because it took me years to admit that I am an emotional eater and now here I am, eating to cover up my emotions! I feel better after I stuff my face with bad stuff. I am sorry, but I am being honest here.
Please pray for my daughter and our family. She is so strong and I know that she will make it through this. The thought of watching my child go through, once again, a very bad time in her teenage life, is killing me softly (God give me strength).
There is a site that you can visit for updates and also the ins and outs of her cancer journey. I have not been there in a while and I am definitely hesitating about going back there. I just wanted to share this information with you first. Now I am headed over there for the first time in a very long time to tell all of the friends that has been following her, the bad news.
Here is the site: http://www.caringbridge.org/vi
Some of my SP friends may already have this site info, so I am sharing it with my new SP friends as well. Please be patient with me while I update the site. Like I said before, I have not been there since about September 2012.
Thanks in advance for the prayers and support.