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Thursday, April 18, 2013

Wow. I've only been back three days and I got picked as a motivator? How did that happen?? How very humbling!! I don't know how I can motivate anyone when I soooo don't have my act together! I had to make a mad-scramble to update my spark-page when I realized everything on it was more than 2 years old and completely irrelevent... heh, I was even still introducing myself as a "divorced single mom of two"!
Updating my page also made me realize that I have no goals, and no program. Just this vague notion that I want to "get healthy" so that God-willing I can be around to see my kids grow into adults, and maybe spoil some grandkids some day.

Despite the fact that I've lost 100+ lbs, I am not very fit. In fact, I think I was stronger at 300+ lbs when I was taking karate classes and swimming and hiking and belly dancing and doing push-ups and crunches and squats like a mad woman. I haven't done ANY deliberate exercise since I got married and moved up-country. I am very busy with my daily chores and I walk a lot, but I do not feel strong. Walking up a hill or climbing a set of stairs leaves me winded and sweaty. I feel very unbalanced - as though I haven't quite found my new center of gravity. And I'm stiff... my range-of-motion is pretty limited and I have no flexibility. If I do any heavy lifting, my arms feel like jello. I'm actually much more concerned with my fitness level than I am with the number on the scales. I'm content to let my body dictate the "right" weight for me. I know I will never fit in those stupid height/weight charts, or even the BMI index. I am a big-boned, big breasted, heavily muscled woman. 130 lbs ain't gonna happen. When I was at 185 I still had a lot of flab. I also have a lot of loose, sagging skin. I think 170 might be a good weight for me, if I have built up good muscle tone.
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    In time and with care, your skin will tighten up to some degree. As you work on building strength in those muscles, drinking plenty of water and getting plenty of vitamins and minerals, you will find that your body and skin adjust somewhat. Congratulations on the baby!
    1799 days ago
    Congratulations Hope! You ARE a motivator for sure. You have accomplished so much. Keep it up!
    1799 days ago

    Remember, you just gave birth. You are allowed to be winded! Take it a day at a time. Lifting that baby will be the equivalent of an upper body workout.
    1799 days ago
    Myrtrose- Yeah, unfortunately I do have skin issues... my inner thighs, my "apron" where my stomach used to be, my breasts, my upper arms, and the skin under my chin. I would absolutely have surgery if I could afford it. My husband, on the other hand, thinks its crazy to pay tens of thousands and risk my life for an elective surgery and he thinks I'm lovely just the way I am. Gotta love that, BUT he has no idea how uncomfortable all that sagging is.
    1799 days ago
    I was wondering about the skin. I know some of your weight loss rewards used to be skin removal surgery. You must have lost weight fairly quickly with your new lifestyle. How bad is the loose skin? Is surgery still something you would consider?
    I have been hearing all kinds of news reports in the last week or so about normal weight obesity. We keep the obesity risks no matter what the scale says if we're not fit.
    Hope, it really amazes me to see the changes you've made, inside and out! Have you looked back at your pics and blogs? You're a changed woman. I'm not surprised at all that you were made a motivator.
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    1799 days ago
    I picked your page, I can't believe all you do and that you moved over there with all the differences and challenges. Congrats on your beautiful baby girl.
    Totally know what you mean, I have always been falbby even as a teen and not oveerwt. I think that was a reason I ddint' want to lose wt for long time, I would be flabbier. but now with arthritis trying to take over my body and sciatic pain, I have decided that I have to get as well as I can. Need to lose 35-40 lbs, do my physio exercises and get a new knee ( yuk)
    Congrats in all that you have done and continue on! LOL

    1799 days ago
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