Thursday, April 18, 2013
wow...lots of sleep & lots of fluids..feeling almost normal today, great timing because now hub has the virus...we need more sofas here...lol
I'm seriously overly emotional right now....just feeling everything to the nth degree...Particularly ashamed of feeling really jealous of my dear friend's son at the moment. Her son is a great kid and has been my son's best friend for over half my son's life. They were once inseperable & now my son's friend is constantly busy & they are unable to spend time together. What bothers me is when my friend tells me how busy the boy is and all about the sleep overs, camps & activities he is involved in. I try to say "yay great..good for him" but what I'm thinking is "one more thing to keep the boys apart."
This would be a good time to mention that my son has an anxiety disorder. He is very shy and just getting him to leave the house is a great achievement. So eventhough the most natural answer to the issue is for my son to get new freinds & interests, doing that is a different story. It pains me to see him sad & lonely, so I try to come up with entertaining things for us to do together.
So I just finished another conversation about all the activities lined up for this weekend & next weekend, that will leave my son alone. And I am almost in tears. I know this sounds childish & immature, but like I said all my emotions are floating at the surface. Since my friend isn't a Spark member, this seemed like the best place to vent about it.