Upon revisiting my goals and rewriting some of my calendar so it was neater I have discovered some things about this month that could use some reflection.
#1- I am tracking like a mad woman. That's good, because now I have data to reflect upon.
#2- I am not very consistent in my eating. I have days where I top off at 3000 calories or more, and then some days where I have a negative deficit of 1000 calories or more because I ate so little. I know this is because life gets in the way, but looking at it in perspective has left me thinking "well no wonder you haven't lost anything" and its no wonder that my deficits go from negative to positives daily, its not consistent at all! There are AT LEAST 3 days in the first two weeks of April that I had a positive deficit, thats nearly half the week, so I am clearly putting in half the effort when it comes to food.
And some days after my calories I even put a question mark...geesh. That shows I was dead tired of tracking that day. Maybe a bit of emotional eating took place.
#3- I like the idea of filling in a calendar, its one idea that has worked the best so far so I am keeping it, before previously for mental health and motivation I had a check box so I had a lot of checks, but couldn't remember what I did or why I was motivated and clearly I WAS NOT motivated because my numbers (not check boxes) were so all over the place.
(this is me hugging myself- trying to put mental health back in the spotlight some)
So now I have a slot to fill in WHAT I did for myself in terms of mental health, and WHAT motivated me. Hopefully that will improve the numbers I am so determined to get right.
#4. The good news is I only have ONE day where I absolutely did not do anything. One day out of 18 is not bad. It has taken me awhile to develop some habits. For example on Mondays and Wednesdays I was so scared of losing my Fitbit I left it at home, making those days particularly inaccurate. The gym didn't come until the 2nd week etc. There was snow, there was illness, life has a way of getting in the way.
Each week I am getting a little better though. That's some good news.
#5. I also vow to only weigh myself once a month. I think I will not be as disheartened that way, plus it just keeps the same pace as my monthly calendar anyway.
#6. If I can get a handle on my eating (lots to think about in upcoming goals) then I think I have a system that works. I did go down 2lbs this month. I should just be thankful for that. And there is always room for improvement.
Thanks for everyone's encouragement.