Thursday, April 18, 2013
I am a little nervous about tomorrow's weigh in at work. (We are having a Biggest Loser contest.) Thinking back now, I probably shouldn't have joined in, but at the time it was motivational for me to kickstart (again) trying to eat healthy and exercise. It also helped that someone else paid my entry fee and that I felt guilty each time I didn't eat right or workout. I was wasting someone else's money. Now, I worry because the number might not be going down. I don't want to get caught up in a number. I would be super happy if I was gaining muscle and losing inches instead of watching the number go down. However, the number staying the same (or going higher) isn't going to win any prizes. They aren't going by the change in your measurements or how much you can lift or press. My head knows that I am making healthier choices and in the long run that is better for me, but there is that kid in me that is pouting because I'm not winning. Of course, I don't know how the other contestants are doing so maybe there wasn't a chance for me anyway. I keep telling myself, "What is my real focus now? What is the most important thing and what is going to matter in a few years?" It is also discouraging to not see that number drop when I've been trying so hard this week (I can think of only 3 times that I ate something that wasn't optimal for me). I'm glad that I'm not weighing at home anymore and that my focus has changed to focusing on healthier habits. And who knows, I may be worrying for no reason. We will see tomorrow. I also know that if the number doesn't change that it will be harder for me to stave off those sweet cravings that I have had this week (Diet Pepsi, Oreos, Dairy Queen Blizzard of the month, etc.) I will work extra hard tomorrow to not let all of this week's hard work go down the drain.