This is why I'm doing it.
Thursday, April 18, 2013
So the other day a girlfriend suggested a beach trip a few weekends from now, and I immediately thought of excuses not to go.
That's not me!! I love the water, I love beach trips, I love being with friends. The fact that I am so uncomfortable with my body and the idea of being in a swimsuit in front of people makes me not want to do any of this shows that enough's enough. This whole journey was to gain confidence for the things I love to do. If someone called me up and said, "let's go to the beach right now!" I want to be able to grab a towel and go without thinking "I'll just wait a month when I've lost a few more pounds."
I am doing a detox right now that will hopefully set me in the right direction, but I really need to start caring for my body first so that I can live life the way I want to live it.
Next time I look at that chocolate bar or processed junk, I will keep this in mind. I want to live in a way that let's me love my body, being comfortable, and feel proud of myself. Anything I'm doing that's not moving me in that direction, in a direction of self-love, has got to go.