When did I start to struggle with my weight? Well, seems like from the beginning of my life! I don't even LIKE to look at pictures of me as a child because I was teased so much about being fat and "chubby".... (I really detested that word as a kid.... CHUBBY!)
I remember locking myself in the bathroom in 3rd grade during lunch so I wouldn't have to eat so that the kids would stop teasing me about my weight. But I was found and was allowed to get a salad that normally only the teachers could get in the lunch line. I was determined and lost 15 pounds on my own... as a 8 year old. But my old habits came back and so did the weight.
I enjoyed eating the ice cream and treats that were in my home. I also was not very active. Not a good combination!
By the time 6th grade came, I lost 25 pounds that year, on my own. Sad to say, my weight would fluctuate the rest of my life... (until now that is!)
Getting married and having 2 children, then on to college, and just not taking care of myself took it's toll. I continued to yo yo. Very frustrating. My unhealthy attitude towards food and yo yo dieting pattern got me to my highest weight of 230 pounds and a size 22 in Women's clothing before my oldest daughter was married in 2005.
On July 10, 2006 my wonderful husband died unexpectedly of a heart attack while climbing Wheeler Peak at Great Basin National Park. I had a need to see where he was when he died and started to exercise and eat right a few days later.
On July 10, 2007 I was 70 pounds lighter and in good enough condition that I hiked Wheeler Peak. It was a difficult thing to do, not only physically, but spiritually, and emotionally as well. I was grateful to have had this experience.
Unfortunately I was still struggling with old eating patterns and habits. I did find Spark People a couple of years ago, but still wasn't making the changes I needed. My weight crept up to 195 and medical problems started to make themselves known. My blood pressure was too high and my knees were giving me problems.
I got training for a triathlon and got back with Spark People. But I was still fighting with all the old stuff! I was so tired of my personal "food fight". This past January I was at 185 and so frustrated with myself. I was visiting my daughter in Seattle and shared with her my frustration. She was right on target when she said "You are very black and white Mom with how you approach your eating". We talked quite a bit, and for some reason, it really made me stop in my tracks. I started back on Spark People and also started Spark Coach. For the first time I started using streaks and it made all the difference in the world.
So here I am, a committed Sparkster! I have always been afraid that I would not be able to keep the weight off, but I am not afraid anymore. I am really putting in the effort to make some very fundamental changes that are working for me. One of the best things that has helped me this time is the concept "One step backward, two steps forward". When I have an off day, I just keep moving forward. I try not to dwell on what could have been, but where I am going. I feel fantastic, and want encourage all my fellow Sparksters to NEVER NEVER NEVER GIVE UP!! It is worth all the effort it takes to take care of these beautiful and wonderful bodies we have been blessed with! Discover why you want to be healthy and keep your eyes on your goals. When you don't keep your eyes on your goals, what do you see? Obstacles.... Keep those obstacles out of your way!
As a side note. I married a wonderful man, a widower, on June 23, 2012. He is my gym buddy and we work together to be healthy. He doesn't have a weight problem, but totally supports me in my quest to be healthy. One of my primary goals? Live a long time and enjoy being active with my husband, children, bonus children, grand children, and bonus grand children!
Life is sweet!
Remember, we can ALL do this!