Some of you saw my feed status from last night and have asked what's going on.
I brought my dog, my baby girl Missy, to the vet for her annual check-up and blood work the other day. I know she is up in years - she is 15 years old - and she's had her issues these recent years with arthritis and age-related things but overall she's done great and I was not really expecting any problems since she had bloodwork done a few months ago and it was perfect. Just last year, my vet had commented that, arthritis issues aside, Missy had the body system of a 3 year old.
Last night, he called me to tell me that he was disturbed by her blood test results/chem panel. It was showing kidney failure which he believes is simply due to her age. He said that 15 was actually a lot of years for her and, well, he wanted to prepare me. So he asked me to bring in a urine sample so he can do a more thorough analysis and see what stage she is at and better understand what is happening, and from there determine what we have to do. I've been with this vet for almost 20 years and this was the most solemn and concerned I have ever heard him.
So I am bringing her urine to him today and then we wait a few days for the test results to know what to do.
When I first heard his report about Missy's kidneys, I was sad. I had to control my emotions. I know he had to do his job as a doctor and prepare me. God made me such an animal lover all my life. I have had my beloved dog for 15 years and it hurts more than I can convey here to think of losing her. She is not just a pet; she is my baby; she is family. I know that we can't all live forever on earth, and I've had my Missy a long time for which I am so grateful.
However, God has miraculously saved my dog's life on several occasions before. I am not giving in or giving up in my faith. All things are possible for those who believe.
I had been working on my blog series and I thought, Lord, you have to help me to go on. I need You to take the load off my mind and help me to go forward. As I went to Him in prayer, and I poured out my heart, and I wept too, I felt His peace and His strength flow into me. His words flowed to me so that I was able to complete and post my blog last night.
As part of what I follow in Scripture (and as we do at my church), I prayed over Missy and anointed her with oil because I am in covenant with God, and He has said He cares about all the things I care about (1 Peter 5:7), and He preserves man and animal (Psalm 36:6), and Missy is under my care and therefore in my covenant with me. So I lifted her to God in prayer, and I thanked Him for His healing power and I entrusted her to His care.
Another SP friend and I also had the same thought. We remembered the story of Shadrach, Meshach, and Abed-Nego when they were told by the king that they had to bow down and worship him or be thrown into the fiery furnace. Their response was: Shadrach, Meshach, and Abed-Nego answered and said to the king, "O Nebuchadnezzar, we have no need to answer you in this matter. If that is the case our God whom we serve is able to deliver us from the burning fiery furnace, and He will deliver us from your hand, O king. But if not, let it be known to you, O king, that we do not serve your gods, nor will we worship- the gold image which you have set up." Daniel 3:16-18
THAT is my stance. I am taking my stand here. I am believing God to preserve Missy as He has always done before. But even if not, even if things don't go the way I am hoping and believing, I will still worship Him and not turn away from Him. I still know that God is good and He is faithful. I still love Him and I trust Him implicitly. If it indeed turns out to be Missy's turn to go "home," then I know I will see her again someday in heaven.... I trust the Lord to keep her for me until we are all reunited.
If someone visits this blog who doesn't believe the way I do on this, that's fine. You are free to believe as you want and I bless you. But I respectfully request that all negative comments be withheld.
If you would - for those friends who were interested in my blog series - please do take a look at #3 which I posted last night. I believe it will bless you.
Thanks to all my friends for their support and care.
A special thank you to Kitty for literally running to my side when I called... I love you girl... you blessed me more than you know.
Another special thank you to my daily prayer partners - Avanell, Deb, Lois, Judy, Barb. The Lord uses you to strengthen my heart and my spirit. I love you all!