Thursday, April 18, 2013
I hate those words. I can't seem stop starting again. Today will be the day. Maybe tomorrow will be better. I take 1 step forward and 2 steps back. I walked over 11,000 steps the other day and gained 2 pounds. I increased my weights working out and gained 1 pound. I don't eat a ton of food - I know I could eat better. I just don't care (sort of). Maybe that is my problem. I don't want to care about it anymore. I wake up in the morning and put on the pedometer and wonder "how far will I go today"? What will I eat for breakfast?, Lunch?, dinner? Do I have to eat dinner? because by the time I get to dinner I won't have any calories left to spare. Will I drink more water? Less? Can I cut back to only 1 diet coke? Is there a miracle pill? If so - I want to buy stock in it. Maybe today will be the day I schedule a consult with a plastic surgeon and cut off all the pounds I am tired of seeing. Will that make it better? What motivation will work today - what catch phrase or photo will trigger something in me? Work harder. Eat smarter. Walk/run longer. Don't talk negative. Stay positive. Think before you eat. Eat before you get too hungry to eat out of control. Stop before you go too far and can't fix it. Go - before you change your mind. And if today isn't the day, wake up tomorrow and begin again. Why does it always come back to that?