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Begin Again

Thursday, April 18, 2013

I hate those words. I can't seem stop starting again. Today will be the day. Maybe tomorrow will be better. I take 1 step forward and 2 steps back. I walked over 11,000 steps the other day and gained 2 pounds. I increased my weights working out and gained 1 pound. I don't eat a ton of food - I know I could eat better. I just don't care (sort of). Maybe that is my problem. I don't want to care about it anymore. I wake up in the morning and put on the pedometer and wonder "how far will I go today"? What will I eat for breakfast?, Lunch?, dinner? Do I have to eat dinner? because by the time I get to dinner I won't have any calories left to spare. Will I drink more water? Less? Can I cut back to only 1 diet coke? Is there a miracle pill? If so - I want to buy stock in it. Maybe today will be the day I schedule a consult with a plastic surgeon and cut off all the pounds I am tired of seeing. Will that make it better? What motivation will work today - what catch phrase or photo will trigger something in me? Work harder. Eat smarter. Walk/run longer. Don't talk negative. Stay positive. Think before you eat. Eat before you get too hungry to eat out of control. Stop before you go too far and can't fix it. Go - before you change your mind. And if today isn't the day, wake up tomorrow and begin again. Why does it always come back to that?
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    I'm sorry that you are having a rough time. Sometimes this all can be hard to figure out. There is no easy way. We all make starts and stops along the way but we must always be willing to keep starting again and push on. Don't beat yourself up. Do what you can today. Try small steps. Say no to one fat snack. Say yes to just 10 minutes of exercise. Say yes to drinking more water. Just DO NOT GIVE UP!
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    1792 days ago
  • RRA1963
    Thanks!! I guess I'm having a really big pity party this morning. I appreciate the support.
    1793 days ago
  • AUNTB63
    I prefer not to start over but rather start from where I am at today.....planning your meals and exercise in the morning or the night before gives you a map to how to work your plan for the day.....YOU can do this. Hang in there. You are not alone on this journey. emoticon
    1793 days ago
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