Thursday, April 18, 2013
I read somewhere on here (SP) about trying to look at behaviours using an a b c method - to see what causes what behaviour to happen and what are the consequences.
a) Today I left work at midday - ate an apple. Was feeling slim - my trousers felt loose - so thought I'd stop off at the chemist (pharmacy) and step on the weight machine. I was dead on 9 stone (126lbs) (dressed and wearing boots mind) - which surprised me - then I thought 'I've been 9 stone for some time now - so reckon it's 'maintenance' point for me'.
b) Next thing I know, I'm buying a vegan chilli pasty (veggies and red beans wrapped in a pastry pocket - quite large!) and feeding myself something tasty, hot and comforting. Granted it WAS lunchtime - but I had planned to have a juice when I got home......... getting home takes about an hour.
c) I enjoyed the pasty. Walking home from the bus I bought a Mars Bar - put it in the ice-box for a quarter of an hour, then enjoyed that with a mug of tea. Tracked - and not overly bad.
I'm not sure what I learned from that 'abc'?
I think that, for me, there was a strong possibility that I was using food to console myself, to comfort and reward myself. It is possible that I do this behaviour to try to self-sabotage myself, like a 'punishment'.
I'm not sure at all?!