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Some days are really good ones.....

Wednesday, April 17, 2013

other days are so cloudy and blue,
that deep inside me is an ache,
a feeling of something missing,
or that I am missing ....
a part of me is hiding away,
deep within a cave with no windows
and no way out,
I just want to curl up into a tiny ball,
like a hermit crab, though I have no shell
at least not in reality,
though my home has become my hermit crab shell.

I know there is a light out there somewhere.
And I know that tomorrow will be better.
No, change that. I know I have a light within me.
It seems to be flickering tonight but
it will be a full blown blaze.
perhaps tomorrow, who knows.
Maybe the next day.
It seems to come and go.

Do not worry, my friends,
and do not despair
for me, for I am not a quitter,
and I never give up.
I may go into hibernation at times,
when things seem so bleak,
and barren, often for no apparent reason
but I always bounce back.
I always pull myself up.....
maybe not immediately,
maybe not right away,
but I will ....never fear.

After all, there is always tomorrow and tomorrow
and Tomorrow....
and who knows what excitement they will bring.
JW 4/17/13

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  • FISHER011
    Love your words! Thanks for sharing!
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    1768 days ago
  • JILL313
    Joanie, You are such a talented writer and express yourself so well. Like others have said it happens to all of us from time to time when we feel down and want to curl up in a fetal position and not deal with our life. I've been there also. . .I'll be praying that tomorrow is a brighter and happier day for you but if it's not then the next day will be. I am so proud of you and Gail for doing the Trek. It sounds like your having fun and getting good exercise and how wonderful to be virtually in beautiful Australia. I had planned to do the Trek myself but life happens and it wasn't good timing for me. Give yourself lots of me time and I know with time you'll be yourself again with the great sense of humor and wisdom.

    Hugs & Love,

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    1772 days ago
    2 Timothy 1:6

    Fan that flame, Lady!

    Such a beautiful poem from a beautiful Woman!
    1772 days ago
    Joanie, thanks for sharing your feelings with us and so beautifully put! emoticon
    1773 days ago
    that is beautiful! You have expressed my feelings to a T! I have never been able to put down in words how I feel but you have!
    Of course only the first 2 verses apply to me...hopefully, with time, your last 2 will!
    Sorry that you have felt this way also....I know how hopeless you felt but I'm so happy that you have found a way out!!! emoticon
    1773 days ago
    Thank you Joan - a beautiful poem ... I know that I can relate to your words. I hear you saying that you will keep trekking on ... sometimes just acknowledging the feelings allows us to release them. Take care, Jackie O
    1773 days ago
  • CJMOK1121
    Joan: I'm so sorry my dear friend, I love the poem. You are such a great composer of words. I'm with Gail, let us help you carry you back pack and fix your food today. And I know at the end of the day one of us will find some chocolate for you. Maybe just maybe I hear a faint voice singing in the background.

    HUGS: CJ from OK.
    1773 days ago
    Sometimes, just writing it all out helps. Why I don't know but I do know that getting it down on paper, well, in this case, on the computer, and with a fantastic group of dear friends, who I know that I can count on to cheer me along and sometimes just push me along and sometimes, just tell me how the cow ate the cabbage......well, now there is an interesting visual.....probably smelly too.......guess my weird sense of humor is back.........I am okay......I will be okay....and today is a new day and is going to be 'a great day' cause I am gonna make it so.....:) emoticon emoticon emoticon Yep, I knew Ann was back there pushing me.....:)
    1773 days ago
    Loved the poem. I think most of us have felt the same way.
    1773 days ago
    Love your poem, and I can feel your pain. Just know that we're all here cheering you on. You can and will carry on! Hugs coming your way!
    1773 days ago
    BIG emoticon sweet friend. YOU always make it through whatever life puts in your way!!! And you ALWAYS will!!!
    1773 days ago
    Love the background to your page!! I think I know that country!! emoticon
    I love your poem - its how life is - for all of us for different reasons.
    Keep bouncing back sweetie - we are all here for you - and I just finished the next section - and there is NO WAY you can miss that - its great fun!!
    I just re-joined the trek today - so watch out - but I think you were asleep - I couldn't hear singing!! emoticon emoticon emoticon
    1773 days ago
    1773 days ago
    My dear sweet Joannie, we all have days like those days. You and I both are from the same stock. We are not quitters. Sometime our road we are on makes us want to give up but something in us makes us keep fighting. We will fight this fight together, OK And keep trekking! .... Up and down those hills, through the brush, over the rocks and to the next town where we have more chocolate waiting. Now, through that tent back on me and let me carry it for awhile. It was so very kind of you to carry it while I had a headache. A trekking we will go, a trekking we will go, hi ho the merry o, a trekking we will go. emoticon emoticon
    1773 days ago
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