Wednesday, April 17, 2013
Alright I've had an epiphany I am not as huge as I used to be. I know this sounds funny coming from someone who has lost 65 pounds, but I really didn't see my new body until today. I had been focusing so hard on eating right and exercising that I neglected to look in the mirror and see what all of my hard work was creating. Until this evening when I went to my daughters house in hopes of finding something to wear for prom. Yes, I said prom. I am a teacher and as such I am expected to participate in the festivities with my students. I must say this was an event I dreaded until this year.
I don't want to buy many new clothes because, I still have over 100 pounds to lose. My
daughter has embarked on her own weight loss journey so mom is inheriting all of her old clothes that no longer fit. Great for my tight budget, but even better for my psyche.
I must admit I was terrified to try her old clothes on when I read the tags and saw size 20.
I found one of my favorite dresses she used to wear it was black and white with polka dots and a halter top none the less. The dress looked so tiny in my hands and I almost put it back on the hanger when something inside said just try it on. I got the dress on and zipped with the help of my daughter. I almost cried as I stood there looking at the woman in the mirror. She wasn't the hideous creature I remember, but a beautiful woman who I hadn't seen in over 10 years. A confident, happy, outgoing woman was looking back at me! You must understand that a size 20 to me is small when you consider the last dress I purchased was a woman's size 34.
I left my daughters house with a box full of clothing and two dresses 1 for the prom and the cute little polka dot number for a special night out. I also left with something more......confidence! For the first time in my life I can honestly say I am going to win this battle with my weight. I am in this for the long haul. I'm so blessed to have the love and support of such an awesome daughter and I can't forget my wonderful son in law, I couldn't do this without them. Thanks to all of my Spark Friends who also take the time to cheer me on you guys are AWESOME!