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For crying out loud!!!!!

Wednesday, April 17, 2013

I came back from dialysis running on empty. I was sooo hungry. I saw 2 chicken pies in the oven. I helped myself to one. But my Mom said : "Hey!!!! Why didn't you ask permission?!".

Honestly, I don't even feel welcomed in my own house! I can't wait to move out! But I can't afford to!!!!! Sometimes, I feel like ending my life but I know God won't be pleased! What can I do?!
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    Breathe!! Tomorrow always seems better after a rough day. Dialysis is tough on people, I'm a retired RN, have done dialysis nursing, I have empathy for what you are going through and have listened to many's story. I was always amazed at how most people still enjoyed their life even though they had so many difficult troubles to deal with almost daily. Keep smiling, it really does make you feel better.
    Huggs, Phyllis
    1528 days ago

    Comment edited on: 4/18/2013 3:09:15 PM
    Oops! I guess I got here a little late... I like everyone's comment particularly TRIANGLE-WOMAN's advice.

    You are not alone on this matter... I am referring to my sister who is living with my mother, youngest brother, wife and kids. Anyway, I am glad you feel much better now.

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    1528 days ago
    Real prayers and virtual hugs!
    1528 days ago
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    Thanks everyone! I feel loads better now!

    I guess I can be oversensitive sometimes!
    1529 days ago
    Prayed for you. It will all work out hon!
    1529 days ago
    Ending your life over chicken pie dispute? Really?

    I think you are worth more than that!

    I can understand wanting your own space. Perhaps you Mom is feeling under appreciated? and perhaps even worried about you or your situation which can come across as irritation and being short tempered.

    When I'm down, or angry, or hurt, I play "The Appreciation Game"....which is simply to sit, close my eyes and think about what I appreciate about the person or situation that is vexing me.

    For example, children are rude to me. I will sit back and think about how talented the are and how please I am that they are all healthy enough to be sassy to me! It does not mean that they don't get corrected...It just means that I am less likely to be angry and hurt when I do it, so the whole interaction is softened. When I correct them and they "hate" me, I tell them that it is not their job to love me...only to obey me. It is my job to love them.

    Open your heart and see things from your Mom's perspective. Don't expect her to see things from yours. We can only control what WE do...not what OTHERS do!
    1529 days ago
    Think positive and think about what your mom may have planned. It may be a good idea to plan for your future appointments with a healthy snack. Stay strong and smile. I read that if you smile, it will improve your mood. Living with parents is tough. I wish you the best. Pray. I will pray for you. Remember that it could be worse. You have a family to stay with. Counting blessings is helpful. Each day think of some benefits of living at home.
    1529 days ago
    I know that living at home can be a HUGE pain in the back side! I lived at home with my parents for quite a while and we were always stepping on each others toes.

    Take a deep breath and shrug it off. Keep smiling no matter what!
    1529 days ago
    Yikes! We love our parents, but sometimes it's rough. Just take a deep breath and find your own space. Hang in there... it will all work out.
    1529 days ago
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