Wednesday, April 17, 2013
Sometimes I get caught up in old, bad habits. That happened to me this week, when I got caught up in some online negativity related to personal issues I have. Before I knew it, full-fledged depression with a side of PTSD. I mean I was really in rough shape. Ugh. Yesterday was SO HARD. I was supposed to be working from home but I didn't touch it.
Nevertheless, I went to the park, walked around a bit, sat by the river to relax, did my workout and fixed myself a healthy pasta salad with whole wheat penne. At the end of the day I still felt like crap, but I had the satisfaction of knowing I had done something to move closer to my goals. My legs were strong yesterday, too, and I could recognize my physical health despite feeling so down.
This morning was a little better, and I took the positive momentum and ran with it. I got everything done on my list at the office today. Then I went online and spent some of my discretionary income on a good pair of hiking boots. A friend on Facebook talked me into the VivoBarefoot trail runners, they are a minimalist shoe that is supposed to allow for more natural movement. They are waterproof and good for mud. They were not cheap. But I went ahead today and RSVPed for a second hike on Sunday, so now I have hikes planned for both days of the weekend. Both hikes are supposed to be good for beginners.
Then tonight's workout, where I discovered I've been doing burpees wrong this entire time and they are even harder than I thought they were. I wasn't doing a push-up or a jump at the top! Sigh. But I hit it hard tonight, and I feel great as a result.
I still haven't touched any junk food. Today at work there was an enormous bag of assorted candies just sitting there for me to eat. I didn't go near it. I didn't even mourn the candy either. I just acknowledged it was there and went about my day. I just... don't want it. I love the simplicity of eating clean. I don't have to struggle with what to eat. I just say... ''Is it food?" If it's food, I eat it. I'm not tracking my calories, I just eat when I'm hungry. But I am losing weight.
So yesterday might have been terrible, but I minimized the damage by sticking to my healthy habits, and I am really proud of that. It made today a lot easier. I am starting to feel good again.