Before I begin, put on your seatbelts! This is a bumpy ride!
I have been "judged" again today and told that this person and her husband are now supporting me because I am on disability for the next 40+ years and the gov't takes "30%, almost HALF" of their checks because I am young enough and should be working.
I have worked consistently since I was 15 years old and have paid the same damn taxes. Also, 30% is NOT almost half of anyone's check, it's ALMOST a third of your check. And I am only on disability for 2 years and then I go in for a review to see if I stay on it if my conditions are the same or worse, or off it if I am all better. I can assure you the mental part of me is not doing so well today.
All I want to know is WHY we can't all just get along. This is another person I have known since I was 12. Why do people feel the need to judge? And she is a "good Christian woman".
I told her that if she thought I was defrauding Social Security to report me and we will have a thorough investigation. Of course, she will need her husband to pick up the pieces of her rotting flesh from several dumpsters throughout these 50 great states, but that is a minor inconvenience at this time.
Just kidding... I would not chop her into pieces and scatter her. That would be premeditated! But some days I wish I was that kind of person. You know what I mean?
So, me being me, I sent out an e-mail to "our" mutual friends and asked them if they all thought I was a worthless piece of poo who sits on her butt while they all pay me as well. You could hear crickets... and then she started telling me how sorry she was and that she wasn't trying to make me hate her. So maye you should SHUT UP so I don't have a reason to hate you. You think?
Well I have my happy face on again as I refuse to acknowledge her and if you think that is passive aggressive, so be it. She called me a whore in 10th grade and I am still pissed about that, so passive aggressive it is. HAHA And I know that you all are going to tell me to ignore her, which is what I am doing in a polite way. Besides, I will have to see her at my best friend's baby shower in June. So I am blocking the negative vibes and basically telling her to ram it up her... well, you know.
Anyway, I am still in a TON of pain from moving the parasite's belongings to her U-Haul on Monday. She went to court today (I checked online) and pled NOT GUILTY for the 5th time, so she goes back to court in May for trial. STUPID, STUPID, STUPID! Wal-Mart is going to put her butt in the prison farm for at least a year. They can and they will. I did get up and walk today, and stretched out on the ball, and tried to do my AbLounge situps... that was a no-go from the start. I think I am going to need to be nice to myself for another day first.
But I am still smiling
, watching for signs that are telling me I am doing right BY MYSELF, and not letting these uninformed comments hinder my happiness. Kill them with kindness? Not so much, but standing my ground and then ignoring them works for me. Besides, my parents have already told me that she has never been my true friend, and situations like this always shake the bad ones loose. So I am shaking as much as I can to drop off the baggage of stupidity and move on with a lighter, happier self.
I hope you all are having a wonderful day. My mother has decided to cook FRIED CABBAGE with bacon tonight so I will DEFINITELY not be eating with my parents. As a matter of fact, I need a clothespin on my nose so I can't smell the bacon at all. This has been a purely torturous day. (But I did sneak a slice of bacon... BIG MISTAKE!) LOL
So to you all, I would like to say thank you for being so supportive when you don't even know me that well or that long. You are solid gems and I honestly could not have a better support system here on SparkPeople. The understanding and acceptance is what keeps me getting up and moving every day. YOU are my true champions and cutie-cutie cheerleaders. And you know what? Everyone on this site just wants to be HAPPY. We aren't here to blast anyone or make anyone feel bad. I do find it completely shameful that the people I have kept in my life are so negative and judgemental toward me after all these years. And I am trying not to judge her either, but we all have things we need to work on. My "thing" is getting my mind AND body right so I can move forward in life versus sitting still.
And if anyone suggests me being better at communicating, I am going to puke. I share, they just don't listen because they have their lives. I UNDERSTAND that and am okay with that, but please don't tell someone that your taxes are supporting "someone" because that "someone" has worked her butt off for 22 years and PAID MY TAXES just like this mean girl is doing for her retirement, or God forbid, her disability.
Whew... I feel much better after venting and I thank y'all for wearing your safety belt and keeping your hands and feet inside the ride at all times. You may exit to the left once the safety bar raises completely. Thank you and have a wonderful day! (I've been to Disney World a few too many times, huh?)
Peace, Love, and Getting Along,