Wednesday, April 17, 2013
I just got trashed by three horribly stressful events. A huge unexpected bill, a ten day delay in evicting my tenant, and a string of control freak put downs from my SO. I went off my diet and drank tequila for 4 days. And slept. I drank very little, but it made me depressed until I skipped a day. I forget that alcohol makes me depressed until it is completely out of my system. Oh also, I starved myself all week and did not lose an ounce. If I don't lose wt. I will be stuck living in an old buick eating cat food for the last 20 years of my life because my elderly millionaire SO won't marry me or leave me anything. I have to lose wt. to man hunt. I won't even have a place for our 12 cats when he dies. No social security, no children. And he doesn't care. After 11 years he doesn't care what happens to me. And he is 80, starting to fail.