Wednesday, April 17, 2013
Wow, its good to be back, and its so good to see that some of my favorite friends are still active on the site, and of course I look forward to meeting new people as well.
Just 15 days ago, I gave birth to my daughter. I had her at home, with no drugs, and pretty much no assistance. (My husband was home with me, but his work was to pace around and call people on his cell phone to see if he could find anyone who could talk me into going to the hospital.) My mother-in-law and aunt-in-law showed up for the last 15 minutes, just in time to "catch" and help me with the clean up. The amazing thing was, once she was delivered, I had absolutely NO PAIN. I am not one of those super-women with a high tolerance for pain. In fact, I'm pretty much a wuss, and believe me the delivery itself was a noisy ordeal with a lot of complaining from me! So the fact that I didn't even need so much as a tylenol after childbirth was a shocker.
When she was 5 days old or so, I started walking to town - which is about 5k or 3 miles. (Kind of unintentionally... I was going to take public transportation, but they were all full that day.) I've now probably done that same 5k five more times. (Every couple days I get a hankering to go into town.) I feel fine with the walking, the only problem is carrying the baby gives me a terrible back ache. Anyway... my point is this: I have to keep reminding myself it has ONLY been 15 days since I delivered. Physically, I feel so good, that I keep forgetting my body endured some major trauma just two weeks ago. I need to remember to pace myself, and start slowly so that I don't set myself back at all.
That being said, I took time to write down my daily to-do list... and when I saw it all written out, I was completely and utterly overwhelmed. Its really no wonder that I've let everything related to health and wellness and self-care slide! I don't know how I was ever keeping up with everything before, let alone NOW with a newborn in tow! And now I want to carve out time for deliberate exercise, Sparkpeople and some TLC for self? Yikes! How exactly am I supposed to "pace myself" when there is so much that needs to be done? And everything on the list is pretty much non-negotiable... Animals must be fed and cared for. Children must be home schooled. House must be at least some-what clean. Garden must be cared for (its not just a hobby, that's a major source of our food!). Meals must be prepared... and prepared from scratch. (This is rural Kenya... no frozen microwave dinners here!) Dishes have to be washed. Laundry has to be washed. By hand. And I still have to keep up with my work on the computer. But I guess what I need to get through my head is that TAKING CARE OF MYSELF is also NON NEGOTIABLE. Its got to fit in there somewhere.
This picture is, of course, my Patricia, at one week. :)