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Where is my mind?

Wednesday, April 17, 2013

My mind is a jumbled mess of thoughts, questions, to-do's. There is so much going on and it's hard to keep everything straight.

There are some serious, and scary, changes on my horizon. For the past 3 years, I've been the primary breadwinner in my household. My husband has been going to school, and he will graduate this June. My husband really wants me to quit my job. I'm terrified to do this. I have a real issue with taking risks - especially financial risks. I also have an issue with giving over the control. I'm always clawing at whatever shreds of stability I think I have. I do want to quit, and I'm on the same page with him about all the reasons why. But I'm also terrified.

If I quit my job, I'd be taking care of my three children (ages 9, 2.5, 4 months) and the house. It would be so nice to have someone be able to manage the household while the other works. The last few years of both of us working, taking care of our children, hubby going to school, etc. Has left us feeling like our heads are spinning all of the time. I feel that if I could be in charge of "holding down the fort" as it were; our lives would be so much easier.

One of the next big reasons, is that I need to be able to focus on myself a little, and I just do not have the time right now. I'm in a bit of an existential crisis right now. I need the time and ability to focus on OA and what I'm doing with weight loss - physically and mentally.

Finally, I'm looking to go back to school to get my degree. I had enrolled a couple of years ago but had to withdraw after having my daughter due to demands at work + having a newborn. I'm no spring chicken and I really really want to do this.

All this is swirling around my head somewhere in the mix of everything going on at work, looking for a place to move, OA/weight loss related stuff, and normal family/kid/household stuff. Oh .and finances which are stressful right now. Also since I may be applying to get into a university soon, I found that I need to re-take the ACT exam along with a couple of sections of the SAT. So I'm studying for that (I remember like NO math formulas. Ugh)

Oops, gotta run. Just looked at the time...

Member Comments About This Blog Post:
JANINE8969 4/26/2013 12:28PM

    You know, I wanted to quit my job and be a SAHM. Were we financially able to do it? No. Did we anyways? Heck yes! It really is the best thing I did as I went into business for myself. The best part is being able to spend it with my three year old daughter. I may even homeschool. Sometimes taking any risk is really scary...but there may be some wonderful gifts waiting for you when you take it. I gladly gave up on that office politics crap because it never coincided with whom I was becoming or how I wanted to raise our daughter. Let go....Let God show you what you need to do.

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JEEPINRED 4/18/2013 10:02PM

    You're never too old to go back to school. My son was four and my daughter was 8 when I went back. My husband worked full-time so I could finish my degree finally (had to withdrawl due to having babies). You can do it. Good luck.

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WOWCAT 4/18/2013 9:45AM

    Thanks for the comments :)

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MOMMAPAM1 4/18/2013 7:59AM

    You are not too old to go back to school. I went back when my youngest went off to college. Do what is best for you.

The main thing is to take care of yourself emoticon

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RKJACKS88 4/17/2013 10:18AM

    I did this change two years ago. Now I have the chance to go back to work and I don't want to! I can't imagine trying to have a job AND trying to keep up with babies, daycare, homework, dinner, chores, etc. Our home runs so much smoother now. I would say as soon as he has a good paying job, if it is what you want, become a SAHM. It is rough adjusting at first but eventually you will see how necessary it is. :) Good luck!

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