Wednesday, April 17, 2013
I want out! I simply can not do it any longer. I am compulsive by nature and this counting of calories is starting to become compulsive in a way that is making me anxious! I have gotten in the rhythm of knowing my body these last few weeks. I know when it needs food and I know the healthy options I can give it. Any binge type behavior has stemmed from not replenishing my body when it needed it. I started getting compulsive over my daily exercise challenge of jump rope, squats, and planks. I got rid of it and feel so much less pressured. I get my exercise in other ways and don't need to depend on these challenges. Though I must admit that I do miss jump roping and would love to incorporate it back a little more.
Despite giving up my daily exercise challenges, I have taken on a new challenge. I have been drinking a gallon of water every day. This is something I will stress about if I don't achieve. My fitness level is way too high not to be drinking this much and I owe it to my body!
I think my naturally obsessive behavior is what has hindered me in the long run of sustainable progress. I think by having less rules, I am going to ultimately achieve my goals.