Tuesday, April 16, 2013
I've been so busy with work that I haven't made time to track my food or post blogs for the past week and a half.
I've been reading The New Rules of Lifting for Women and it kind of irritates me. All the stuff about lifting is actually at the end of the book. There's a ton of crap about nutrition in the middle. And the author spends a lot of time comparing other diets. I'm bored with it. I want the info about lifting. I've skipped ahead and looked at the pictures. But I still don't know how to put together a new workout - which is my primary goal at this point since I'm a little burned out on my current one. I read it while I'm at lunch at work and I usually fall asleep after about 10 minutes. A lot of what he has to say strikes me as very negative, so I easily lose interest. I'm sticking with it, but I'm glad I just got it from the library and didn't actually purchase a copy.
I've determined that I need a strength training workout that I can do with bodyweight alone - for days when I cant go to the gym - like during my upcoming trip to visit my best friend in California. I don't want to kill my routine. But everything I'm doing now involves a dumbbell, so I don't know what I'm going to do when I don't have access to any dumbbells for 5 days in a row. I can still run, but I need to keep up with my strength training too.
I feel like my progress is starting to stall. That may also be because I lost a bunch of weight in the one week because my appetite was non-existent because I was so sad. I know I'm still making progress. I'm just adjusting to it taking more time.
My clothes are much looser. I never did create a reward system, but I have enough old clothes that can easily serve as rewards. My favorite pair of jeans may have to be retired soon. but I'm okay with that because now I have a new favorite pair.
I talked to Dan a week after his email, and he took me back. But things are different now. The distance between us seems much greater. I've detached. My love has faded. I'm keeping him around because when I do spend time with him, it's fantastic. But I also don't really trust him so much anymore. So I'm actively looking for someone new, but still trying to see what happens with Dan. I doubt anything will happen. but I'll feel better when that whole thing ends and I've had some time and space to kind of get over him before it actually happens. I'm weird like that.