Tuesday, April 16, 2013
I am not liking the view from where I am standing - so I'm going to go stand somewhere else. HA! How bout that. I had my rant last week about being stuck... and I got some great advice from great supportive people on all the things I can do to get unstuck.
So the first one I thought I'd tackle was being nicer to me. I know - do the hardest one first and the rest will come easier..... I curled up on the couch at the lake and read a romantic mystery for most of Friday night. Saturday we had a friend over we hadn't seen in a year - and it was so nice to connect again - had a few good laughs and sat outside on the deck having a beer despite the temperature only hovering at freezing. The sun was nice shining on my face.
Today I met up with my friend Lisa for a coffee after the work day. I don't connect with women friends too often. It was nice to sit and chat about all the craziness in our lives - our disappointments and dreams. It made me remember that to really enjoy the good times - we have to slog it through some rough times.... so I'm feeling better overall.
I've been eating healthy again. And eating breakfast again. I must admit my day goes better and my mood is much more steady with a bowl of Vector and a banana under my belt before 8 am. I filled up my veggie keeper with lots of salad stuff and I've been eating my veggies and lean protein meals again.
The lemon water has replaced most of my diet cokes - but I'm still hanging on to this diet coke addiction - it is the least of my worries right now....and I've almost convinced myself to go to the gym only because I am more thinking of how good it will feel to sit in the sauna after logging a few laps in the pool.
So overall I'm getting back on track - slowly easing my way back into the fit and healthy me.
I know I need to be patient. The business will pick up - a phone call will come - or maybe an email will pop on screen - something will give and I'll be back in the game - back on track with that too.
I must say that all the words of wisdom made me feel truly cherished in sparkland. Yes my weight is still stuck - but my soul is moving on - continuing the journey... one day at a time... sometimes one hour... one minute at a time... this too will pass.
Sometimes you just need to turn around and realize that where you have been has brought you to where you are today... and where ever you look next - that's where you will go. I"m looking forward. To the future.. to what I can change. And that's what I will focus on - what I can change - behavior, activity etc... and what I can't control - I am leaving that alone!!!!!!!!!!