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Tuesday, April 16, 2013

I've had some ups and downs. Poor planning mostly. Always a downfall of mine. I think it's nearly impossible to do this perfectly when I'm trying to be this strict with everything I have going on in life - especially with me being as much of a food addict as I am.

So I blew it several times this weekend. And then got back on track yesterday. And then I had some junk in a goody bag we got at school today. I'm trying not to let it throw me off completely. I did go to Zumba last night, so that's something. It's the first time I worked out in I don't even know how long. Awhile. I really didn't want to do it but I did. I probably won't do anything tonight though. We'll see but I doubt it. There is a mountain of laundry with my name on it.

Some friends and I played whiffle ball on Saturday. I'm shocked at how out of shape I got so quickly! I was struggling to run around the bases. Really struggling. It was uncomfortable. That's really disappointing.

I'm still really struggling with tiredness but I haven't been able to stay on the plan long enough to see if it helps. This is a really common theme with me. I think 5 days is just about the longest I can make it without eating something I don't want to be eating. I wish I knew how to stop wanting bad stuff. I thought I had a breakthrough with learning how bad processed food is. It's helped for sure. I have to remember what I was like before. But I still crave it. And if I give in and eat something, the cravings are so much worse and I have such a hard time getting control again. Why can't I be satisfied with healthy wholesome food? That's the person I want to be. I keep thinking if I can stay away from the bad stuff long enough and keep eating the good stuff, I'll get over my addictions. But so far I can't stay on track long enough to see if that's true or not. It's pretty discouraging.

Not giving up though. Just making healthy choices as much as I can. What I'm doing is far from perfect but at least I'm getting good stuff in and limiting bad stuff. And I keep trying.
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    Know it may not be all your fault! all the processed food like chips candy soda is programmed with  stuff to make you crave it and it never feel full from it. First stay away from high fructose corn syrup, find similar foods made with sugar.. or make the same stuff from scratch and use stevia/sugar mix. I personally don't like small snack like fun size candy, I'll eat way too many. Just give me the whole candy bar and be done with it!
    Have you been tested for any food allergies? Mine is wheat. My world changed when I quit eating wheat. It took fast food out of the picture, most packaged snacks too. So I have to make lots of stuff myself and do without. Most gluten free cookies,bread etc suck and cost way too much!
    1633 days ago
    So, what's your plan to ensure you make the healthy choices? If planning is your downfall, I think you could really benefit from making some small daily or weekly goals, writing them down and writing out action steps for how you're going to implement them. emoticon
    1643 days ago
    This blog hit home for me. I've been really struggling. I have a great week, and eat clean and then I don't get enough sleep and spend the day fighting off (if it's a good day) or worse caving into major carb cravings. I think Jean's right. Recognizing the triggers is a great first step, and then getting back to basics… water, sleep, 6 servings of veggies and fruit, and 10 minutes of exercise.
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    1643 days ago
    Man do I HEAR YOU. I really struggle with the food stuff! I always see those quotes on pinterest like "You'll crave the good stuff!" and I swear I have tried and it isn't the same. That IS the person I'd ideally LIKE to be, but is that the REAL me? I don't know if I can ever make it out to be the real me. I used to do these "streaks" like three months, no fried food. They say it takes about that long to form a new habit. Did it work? Nope.

    And then I see people meal planning, spending hours in the kitchen making paleo meals, working out. I struggle with myself on the one hand that I'm not that "dedicated" to my health and fitness, but also the other hand with the fact that I have a life and a job and I enjoy other things besides being chained to a gym or the store to buy fresh produce 3 times a week.

    You really verbalized my problem back to me really well here actually. I think 5 days is about how long I go too, and then I get tired or lazy or plain old "my friends are eating nachos, why can't I? YOLO and I want to have fun" type thing.

    I wish I had an answer for you, instead I am just writing this long comment because what you said hits so close to home. Are we bad people for not being 100% strict, or are we good people for going with life's flow? For me it depends on which day you ask, but I think I know which side the "real me" sits on!

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    1644 days ago
    You can get through this! Keep positive and recognize your triggers. Never give up you're worth it!!
    1644 days ago
    It can be hard, but once you identify these mental blocks - like not being able to make it past 5 days - you have a goal to shoot for. Try to challenge yourself to make it to 6. Then 7. Try to realize often it's a mental block, and you have to be persistent to get past it. I know you can do it.
    1644 days ago
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