Just keep pushing
Tuesday, April 16, 2013
I've realized that one way to fight that other part of myself is by working out, so even though I don't have much to say, I'm figuring that if I post this, then that'll help me stay motivated? Ok, staying motivated is NOT a problem for me, it's just ...needing the motivation to fight that other part of myself? It's too conflicting, it really is.
But yesterday was great. Did I eat enough? Heck no. To recap:
Ran 35 minutes, elliptical for 35 minutes
Had a gu gel energy/electrolyte thingy on my way to work (100 calories)
Dinner (or is it lunch?? 2nd shift is so complicating!) = salad with carrots, cucumber, tomatoes, bell peppers, almonds, and celery with olive oil/balsamic vinegar (max 150 calories); apple (70 calories)
Snack (or is it dinner??) = apple (70 calories) with turkey pepperoni (max 100 calories), asparagus (30 calories) with my truffle oil mayo (max 100 calories).
And that's it. A grand total of a max of 620 calories. And that's a way over estimation. It's probably a lot closer to 500.
But anyways, I dreamed about binging last night. Like seriously, what is my brain trying to do to me!?
At least the scale is going back down. Today was 152.2. I'll get back to 140 though (and beyond). I went through the 140s very quickly last time and I'm not expecting that to happen again, but maybe this month long binge and the scale going up 15 pounds or so was a way to jumpstart my metabolism. I just have to keep pushing.