Tuesday, April 16, 2013
Tragedies like yesterdays, really make me think about my own life and what's going on. There is so much missing and I can not get it back. The one thing I lost and can not find, is my friendship with my one and only sister. I distanced myself from family a little, about a year or so ago. The reason for this was because of some healing I needed to take care of in my own life. I sent an email to them all explaining what I was doing in hopes that they would understand. I don't think my sister did. She has always seen me as a selfish person and this only reassured her thoughts. It was important that I do what I did in order to get better. But now that I have passed that point, I am trying to reach out to her and she keeps distancing herself from me. We no longer are sisters and friends, we are acquaintances. I miss our times together and maybe I will never be able to get those back. I wish I could somehow mend what has come between her and I. We are so different. She is very outgoing and people love to be around her. I am a bit more quiet in large settings and prefer to not be amongst big crowds. She has a huge cluster of friends and I only a few. I just don't know what to do next..or maybe I shouldn't do anything at all. Prayer is all I have to hold on to right now. But prayer is powerful and pray is what I will do!
Extra prayers for Boston...God be with them!