I'm not saying it's been easy, but it is do-able.
I've had my moments; in fact, I had one last night. It's that feeling of need....but it's really a feeling of want. It hits me like a tidal wave out of nowhere. Last night I did something different. I sat and allowed myself to feel the craving and not feed it. I don't remember ever doing that. In the past, I'd more often go get something to make me "feel better" or I'd try to distract myself in some way. This time, I sat there and really tuned in. I knew I wasn't hungry. I identified that I had had a slightly stressful day and this was always a typical soothing mechanism for me. I thought my way through it and reminded myself how fantastic it feels to get up the next morning knowing that I ate clean the day before. I also noticed when the urge started to wane, and that it became much less intense only after 20 or so minutes.
Happily, I got up this morning with that satisfied feeling and recognized how much better that feels than chasing down negative feelings with food. It's like the Beck system says....you build up your resistance muscle and it will get easier over time with consistent practice.
I have stayed with my resolve to not weigh myself. It takes longer to see any measure of results. It'll be a while before I can visually see my progress, but by then I'll be well on my way to making permanent habit changes. I just have to trust that I'm doing the right thing and stay the course - don't look back and don't look ahead.
In evaluating my eating, I recognize that I may have been eating more volume overall in the past couple of weeks, even though I've only eaten foods that are on my plan. I think it's time to pay even more attention to portions - visually that is, I will never go back to weighing and measuring food.
I also think that I can deliberately reduce fat a bit. My plan does not restrict healthy fats and that's been helpful in satisfying my appetite. But over time I will work to cut down on those as well.
Another factor is that I'm not getting enough exercise. I'll admit that I've spent a little too much time sitting at the computer catching up on TV shows and Netflix movies. I've been blaming the weather because it's been too cold to go out and walk. This weather depresses me and the computer is another escape. The warmer weather will arrive soon enough, but in the meantime I have to call it what it is and just push myself to bundle up and get outside to walk.
I know where I need to improve, and I will, perhaps slowly but definitely surely.
"Inch by inch, life's a cinch; yard by yard life is hard".
It's a process and it's not going to be a quick one, so I guess I'll just buckle up and enjoy the ride.