Monday, April 15, 2013
One year ago today is when I truly began my weight loss journey. It is crazy to believe that one year later I am still in the game. I've always lasted a week or two, a month or two, but never a year or two! Never would I have imagine I would be where I am today. Never would I believe that I could lose over 80 pounds.. and yet here I am, pushing past 80.. headed to 100+ pounds lost. Looking for around 130 pounds lost to be a little more specific.
Last year I felt faint-hearted. I felt like it was never going to happen for me and that it would just turn out like every other attempt.. a failure. But I felt like if I was ever going to lose weight it had to be now and I half-heartedly started my weight loss journey. Clearly it has not been in vain.. because here I am a year later and 80+ pounds lighter. I am more mobile, I am more energized, I am happier, and while I am doing a little struggling to eat the right foods.. I feel optimistic and I am pretty darn confident that I will hit my weight loss goal by the end of this year. If not the end of this year, then early next year. If not.. I won't let that deter me. I will push until I am able to hit my goals.. and then I will push to maintain a healthy weight and to maintain a healthy lifestyle. I have learned so much on my weight loss journey such as portion control, will power, motivation, and getting my butt moving!
I am never giving up what I have worked so hard to achieve. I remember the days that I was so overly depressed because I was overweight and "couldn't lose weight." May I add that I didn't even attempt? I would complain I hated how big I was while eating a third of a package of oreos and a huge cup of milk.. just a little while after eating a huge plate FULL of food, after sitting on the couch doing nothing ALL DAY LONG. Seriously.. I don't really know my frame of thinking at that time. It must have been something along the lines of this. "Let's try to lose weight by eating more food and complaining." Because that folks, is how we take care of the problem. Right? I remember being 'mooed' at by some high schoolers when I took my kids to the lake to swim. I was horrified. I was so upset I cried in my husband's arms for about an hour straight. I don't think anybody should ever be put through that humiliation.. no matter what their weight. It was a huge eye opener. I will never let myself go back to that point. I don't want to feel like people are staring or laughing at me because I am big. I don't want to feel like I am too big to play on playground equipment with my kids. I want to be a thinner version of me. I want to be happy with the way I look, confident, and live an active life with my kids. I want to be me!