Monday, April 15, 2013
I've been gone over a year. It has been an emotional and disappointing time. I've gone back and read all of my blog posts from the beginning. Looking at the motivation and determination. Also the excuses. In my time away, I managed to gain everything back that I lost. The short of it, is I suffered a really bad injury in my foot. Add this to the serious depression I was suffering from. And that was a recipe for the self destruction that ensued. Since that time I've dealt with my issues. Some that will never be gone. The injury in my foot has cause arthritis in my toe which is not my friend. I am treating that the best I can, and am no longer going to hide behind that excuse. I've left the job that was making my life as miserable as possible. Since that time I lost the job that I had gone to and have been unemployed for 5 months. Now that the back story is out of the way. It's time to get this train rolling again. A new me. A new mindset. No more excuses. My life will get better one day at a time. I've been working on changing things little by little the last couple of weeks. I've live the last year on nothing but diet Pepsi. I've been working towards a no soda lifestyle. If I have one or two, I'm not going to be upset about it. But I've added water to my daily intake and keep increasing that intake. I've begun taking vitamins because I was just so blah. I have spent my unemployment just eating like crap. not leaving the couch. Sick. Today I will be beginning my workout routine. Mostly cardio at first. I am more out of shape than anytime in my life. I also started my food tracker again today. I'm usually a person who would say don't look back. Well, I want to look back Look at where I was when I started this journey, and remind myself that I have a path to clear in front of me. I have a journey to continue on. I have to finish what I've started.