Sunday, April 14, 2013
I went to the gym for the first time in a week. To be honest, I really didn't want to go this morning, but I forced myself to do it because I knew I'd feel better once I did. I also gently reminded myself that it's only going to get harder if I wait longer. I had also eaten very terribly yesterday, so I had that on my mind.
I made a motivational chart. Basically, it consists of every Monday beginning April 8th, and has 44 squares, so I have every Monday until February 3rd, 2014. That date isn't special or anything, but I accidentally made too many squares. On the first Monday of each month, I have a projected weight based on the weight I was on April 8th. I used the Sparkpeople tool, and just entered each date to get a possible projected weight. I did that so I can have a way to stay on track. I know that I won't always lose 2 pounds per week, but it will at least serve as a form of motivation and provide a guide of where I could be, or a range of where I should be. In a perfect 2 pound per week loss, I could be down to 165 pounds by February 3rd 2014. That's exactly half of my original starting weight. It's exciting to think that I could get there, and I know it's possible-even if not by that projected date. It's exciting to think that I could lose 50% of my original body weight. It was my original goal, but then it seemed like too much, so I changed it to 180. I would still like to get to 165, but I'll have to decide once I get closer to that. Right now, my primary focus is just getting under 200 pounds.
My focus this term is not procrastinating. 2 other students and I formed a study group for Spanish where we meet Monday and Wednesday after class and do our Spanish homework. last week, I spent a lot of time in the library so I could read and get an assignment done that is due tomorrow. I actually finished that assignment on Friday, so that felt pretty good. I figure if I'm at the library, I'm not at home eating, or using food as a means of procrastination. I'm also not distracted there, and most importantly, I'm getting my assignments done in a timely manner.
Yesterday my sister picked me up and we hung out and visited one of our good friends and her baby. She told me that the restaurant her mother works at was hiring a weekend hostess, and it would only be from 9-2 Saturday and Sunday. That would be PERFECT for me! The thing is, I live about 15 miles away, and don't have a car....But then my sister thought of something: I could ride the bus on Fridays, and 'live' at my parents' house for the weekend, then bus back on Monday. I'm thinking about it now, and it doesn't seem like a bad idea. I'd like to have a job. I'd like to save up money for a car. She's going to talk to her mom about it, and because it's a mom and pop restaurant, it's likely that we can just cut the bureaucratic crap and just land me a job. I've already gotten a rejection letter from a place I applied at in the town I live in, and the other place I applied at isn't hiring....it seems like that's my only hope for extra income.