Sunday, April 14, 2013
Funny how life works sometimes. I can go, go, go on my journey to accomplishing my goals and then one day I'll notice something different is going on. Something doesn't feel just quite right. I'll take a look around, see maybe some extra "busyness" going on lately, but decide that that isn't what is causing this feeling. Then I come to the conclusion....Yep, I've fallen off my path. That path that "I" have constructed for myself. Me. Miss Positive not doing what she set out to do.
Having the ability to set up a path with a goal in mind is something I love doing. Having the ability to accept that I do not know exactly what my path is and that there will be twists and turns along the way is something I've grown to learn to accept and find ways to enjoy. It always makes me cringe my face and shake my head a little when I find myself surprised when things aren't going exactly the way I thought they should be going.
I have a habit of becoming so busy that I allow it to take precedence over what I feel is important to me. Funny thing is is that it takes me a few days, few weeks sometimes, to recognize that I've allowed this to happen. What knocks me upside the head is I will begin having an empty kind of a feeling. A feeling that there is just something missing.
I'm a person who thrives on pursuing my goals. I love finding goals to work towards, putting together a plan to get to them and finding all of the beautiful, and sometimes painful, lessons along the way. When I'm out of my element, which would be my "busyness", I become hollow. Yet it takes feeling hollow for a while for me to stop, look at my life at the moment and come to the conclusion that I am missing my path. Literally missing it in the way of longing for it.
I don't mind going through these phases as it becomes another learning lesson along the way to my goals. We all go through times of lack of motivation, busyness or maybe a goal simply needs redefining. I love to dream big, but sometimes those big dreams of mine need to get chopped up a bit so they can be accomplished in much smaller steps. And there simply must be room for flexibility, a sense of humor and the willingness to take it all in stride. Having my goals redefined from time to time gives them new life, which in turn gives me a renewed strength. And the hollow feeling becomes filled with something much more valuable to me.
Time to get back onto my path and maybe take a new right turn....or a left one :) Won't know til I get back out there and see where it's taking me.
Time to carry on....