Sunday, April 14, 2013
At the end of the workday last night I had a pretty heated hour long 'discussion' with my supervisor. I have never ever in my life had a discussion of that sort with someone who was my superior. But I was frustrated and unfortunately once I started talking about the things that were going on that bothered me, I did not stop. He did not seem angry after we were all done but instead told me it was a good discussion.
I am not certain what the fallout will be from this talk we had or in what way my work environment or work relationship with him will change. It's hard to tell what people really think or what they will really do when they are wearing that work mask.
Like a lot of women I do not like confrontation and will in general do anything to avoid it particularly at work.
Never mind that my 'work' consists of dealing with confrontation all the time. That is different from confronting someone who is supposed to be my boss. It's different when I am the one being confrontational.
I got off of work about 45 minutes after this discussion and I really didn't know what to do with how I felt. I sat outside on my deck and had a glass of wine (6 ounces! lol). I tried watching Psych which is goffy fun and 80s nostalgia all wrapped up in one, but that didn't do it. I texted a friend but she had just had surgery and the whole mess was too complicated to explain over text so I gave up on that. I spoke to my son but he really doesn't understand the nuances of work relationships and/or the work environment and being my confidante really isn't his role.
I could not sleep.
So I ate. I had lentil chips which I am addicted to. Then I dove into one of my favorite secret things to eat. I love to eat croutons. It's funny.... I've had these croutons for months and stopped putting them on salads a while ago. I ate them all last night though.
Last time I overate it was with skinny cows and it made me sick. It made my blood sugar go higher than it ever had before. Thhen, I felt sick the entire day afterwards.
My blood sugar is okay this morning though which is good. I have noticed that when my blood sugar is out of whack I feel nauseous. Which makes sense because that is how my diabetes got started. I think I had food poisoning from ordering chinese food when my doctor caught the diabetes. I felt weak and nauseous and couldn't keep anything down. But, maybe it was some of the diabetes too. I was nauseous for a week. Not sure ..... will probably never know for sure.
Point is, I lucked out somehow and my blood sugar is okay and I feel okay this morning after my crouton carb binge.
I have to work this morning. 'm working overtime which will actually be used for regular time because I have some vacation. This week I actually have time off. 7.5 hours in total actually. LOL But ... I have ALMOST 3 days off in a row. I'm looking forward to binging on Zumba classes. I also am going to work hard on my algebra.
My son is coming home soon which I am happy about and I have some fun things planned this summer. Some things are just for me. Some things are for him to do.
This morning I am going to do my morning jog with my dog Brownie. Then I am going to make the 45 minute drive to the only church in this Bible Belt state that I can stomach - actually I LOVE the church but am surprised that it has survived Houston - and I'll probably go to the bookstore before I go to work.
May everyone have a wonderful day!!
Game of Thrones tonight!!!