Saturday, April 13, 2013
Started feeling very indecisive and anxious and ended up overeating pretty seriously and having a strong urge to go to buy more binge food. Presently I'm fighting that urge and hoping to wait it out by distracting myself with the internet, coming here to check in, looking at my calendar reminder (if I make it through today I'll have 4 binge-free stickers in a row), and reminding myself of my May 10 camping trip goal. I want to be in better shape by then to maximize my opportunities to run/hike/climb and minimize my chances of injury during the aforementioned activities.
I'm pretty sure I've made the decision not to go out and buy more binge food. I am not hungry. I wasn't hungry when I was overeating. I don't need to eat any more and feel worse about my lack of self-discipline.
Unfortunately I never made my "emergency" list of go-to skills, but I think I will work on that now since I'm still fighting the urge to binge... Hopefully the next time I check in here I will have it done.
One thing I want to practice more is working with a timer. One of my other friends who I was talking to about anxiety said she had success using a timer to quantify things and not let tasks or other things feel so ovewhelming.