Well, today is my Birthday. I am feeling pretty good. I am actually feeling better than I have for many many birthdays.
- I am healthy. I have now been just under my goal weight for 49 days straight.
I have a wonderful man in my life. I am so very lucky to have him. He was going to go work on the acreage today but came down stairs a bit ago and said he is planning on kidnapping me for the day, if that is OK. He wants to take the Harley out.
I think that is super sweet. I mentioned yesterday that I just want to go to Cracker Barrel, maybe Sunday. I splurged twice this week on carrot cake. YUMMMMM. I felt kind of guilty the first time but told myself to enjoy it the second.
I am thinking back to when I had my Aspen girl. I remember being so grateful that April to have her on my Birthday. She ended out passing in May. That was a HUGE gift. She was a HUGE gift I will treasure for the rest of my life. Yep, that big of an impact. Crazy huh?!?
She somehow was always there for me. She helped me realize I am strong. I can be the type of person I want to me.
It was nice waking up this morning to my routine of getting on the treadmill. I of course got on my work and personal computers first and had a coffee. But as I was stepping on the treadmill (for just 2 miles so far) I thought, this is good. This is you.
Utah - My boy is hanging in there. Tuesday will be 1 month since the last seizure. That is HUGE. I am hoping we can stick with this and lower his dosage of epilepsy meds at some point. He is a bit more drowsy than I would like him to be. I hate to say, his appetite has been up and down and he has had a bit of an upset stomach. I considered taking him to the vet today. I am grateful for no seizures.
I am very grateful for you. I appreciate you being there for me, for being friends.
I feel like I may be finally starting to step up to where I should be with my career. I am much less lazy than I used to be. That is real nice. Sounds odd but for years and years I thought of myself as lazy because I was. It simply was me.
I am more active now in so many ways. I enjoy more doing than just sitting. I enjoy both now. I should mention, it was an up and down week, a bit. I worried about Utah having another seizure. I worried I would be over my weight this week. Things slowed for a short bit at work and I seem to struggle with that. I think it is the feeling of not being needed. I really don't like that.
I think Aspen and Utah may help me to feel needed in a way. Not sure that is a good thing but it is the way it is. No biggie. Aspen needed and Utah needs love and care. I am good at giving that.
Well, let's see. I have a work conf call at 9:00, yes on Saturday. I may skip the 4:00 if we do end out taking the Harley out. Then tomorrow I should be fully focused on taking a practice test for my PMP certification. I only took part last weekend. I did not accomplish as much as I wanted. I did not do great. I am more hopeful for this weekend. I lose access to the coursework on Wednesday I think.
Anyway, that is what is going on in my head today.
I did take the pups for a quick 10 minute walk too. It was nice to get Utah out in the fresh air for a bit.
Thanks again for being there. HUGS 2U.