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No secret


Saturday, April 13, 2013

There are subjects that I said I would not discuss but I feel the need to at this point. I am constantly being asked what I do or did to loose so much weight. I mean well it only took 40 years for me to figure out what it would take. For me it was a difficult process to over come . I mean i vested thousands and thousands of dollars into being thin and happy only to end up fat and miserable so what happened to make it click . I stopped trying to fit into a mold that the world would make me the way I wanted to be . I was sitting on that couch weighing 365 pounds and i thought if the rest hasnt work what will work. I decided to use my abilities that everyone said wouldnt work and see if I could make them work for me .. I am a great logical thinker, wonderful organizer and a terrific planner. but as good as these traits are there is one thing that i had to do to find my way to success.

The most expensive gift that i ever gave myself was a 3 dollar notebook. I had to come to terms with being fat. I had to accept all the things that had hurt me. I had to forgive those who were cruel . and for 28 days I poured it all out into a book. I laughed I cried i gave it all to that book and cleaned my soul of all the garbage that I was toting around. I had to stop letting people have power over my soul. I had to accept that being fat was just easier than it was to work to fix it. I had to let go of my excuses and learn to love myself enough to change what i did not like at all . I accepted that the world did not hate me nearly as much as i hated myself for what i had become. Only once I learned that i could love me at 365 pounds enough to want to be different then could I change the direction.

Using my own talents and knowledge I forged my own path . I cant tell you that there is some secret but I can tell you if you continue to lie to yourself there is no success. I am brutally honest with myself about what i do . I know when i give it my all and I know when Half a** it. I work hard at it and some times i just dont want to but in those moments that is when i make myself do it because i know what it took to get to this point right here right now. People say " i just want to be accepted for what i am right now " not me I dont really care any more if i am accepted or not because I accept that i am better than I was yesterday and know I will be even better tomorrow. I am still searching for the first hundred pound mark and i am still 8 pounds away but you know what ... I will get there but for right now I will enjoy the journey to that point because well after that 8 pounds there is still a whole other 100 pounds to go . It took me a lot of years to realize it isnt about a number it really is about how you feel right now at this moment and right now at this moment I am stronger than I have ever been in my life. So today just love yourself enough that you can stop searching for others to love only then will you know that they already do .
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MRSBETH99 4/14/2013 9:51PM

    Great blog!! Thanks so much for sharing your heart. You're so right that we must learn to love and accept ourselves first. Without that inner strength and power, we don't have enough strength for the journey. You're inspiring!

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TERESA159 4/13/2013 1:26PM

    Awesome blog Tink, love it. You are very wise and your success is directly related to your ability to be so honest with yourself. I agree that loving yourself is a very important component in this whole game. Success can't come out of self-hate, only self-love. Am very happy you've found your way and yeah, enjoying the journey is a good way to go (especially because it's so long!). You've inspired me to relax, accept, and take this ride in stride. And be happy that we are better every day.

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JIBBIE49 4/13/2013 8:50AM

    Good work, keep it up

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JOHNMARTINMILES 4/13/2013 7:44AM

    Good work, keep it up

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