Friday, April 12, 2013
I re-started my weight loss attempts again on 3/4/13. I'm down 16 lbs so far---hooray! But, I feel this emotional pull trying to drag me backwards today. I am so psyched and proud of how far I've come in approx. 5 weeks but it takes so very little to derail me. I've been trying low carb days on Tuesday and Thursday. 7 days of low carb a week is not for me but I thought maybe 2 days a week would be just the boost I need to keep myself on track with my 2 lb/wk goal. Well, it hasn't panned out as I thought. For all the success stories I hear from others, either my scale shows I weigh exactly the same the day after a low carb day (even though I usually lose SOMETHING the rest of the days) or I actually go up as much as a half pound! Now, before everyone dissects my eating on low carb days, let me first just say I don't actually "count" carbs on my low carb days. I eat the same number of meals--usually fewer than my normal 1450 calories per day--but the difference is I try to make sure everything I eat that day has 5 g. of carbs or less. I'm not eating 2 lbs of bacon and half a pound of cheese either! I workout at least 45 minutes every day. I'm proud of where I'm at. I'm already 1/3 of the way to my goal in the first month basically. But, we had a potluck at work today after I stepped on the scale and saw it went up half a pound and let's just say it probably went up another half a pound by now! I think I did pretty good though. I definitely had way more calories than I have been but not nearly as many as I once did. I actually was able to stop eating all the goodies once I was full, but in the past I would've kept eating because it was "a special occasion". Funny. I have "special occasions" way more often than I realized! That's probably why I gained so much. Have a bad day at work? Stop at Culver's and treat yourself to a butter burger and onion rings. Have a great day at work? Stop at Culver's to celebrate with a butter burger and onion rings! I am far more an emotional eater and creature of habit than I realized. Today was a milestone being able to walk away from the food once I was full. Tonight...I'm craving things and I'm falling into the old broken record bit again. "Self, you already kinda blew it at work with the whole potluck thing. Might as well go the distance and tip the fridge into your wide open mouth! We can start over tomorrow...." Anybody else ever said that???