Friday, April 12, 2013
Things didnt go as I had hoped today at the Ortho visit.
It wasnt all bad.
The foot isnt any worse, the bone hasnt seperated anymore than it had.
But, its not growing back, or healing in a timely manner.
It has been a full 3 months. And at this point, the callus or cartiledge should have closed the gap, or filled in between my foot and the broken off piece of bone.
The callus is forming, but its still too soft at this point.
So, the next step is to continue the high doses of vitamin d. And soon, in about a week I will get an appointment made to begin electromagnetic bone stimulation. Bone stimulator as the doctor called it, in the only real positive part of the day, my friends and I shared a good chuckle at that title...(dirty joke inserted here).....
And I am unsure how long that will continue or how often I will have to do this.
I go back to the doctor again in June.
He isnt going to do a repeat lab on my vitamin d until June.
He didnt give me all bad news.
He told me that if I feel that my foot isnt hurting too much, I can try walking.
He said maybe I can start with about 20 minutes once or twice a week. And if my foot isnt hurting then I can continue that until I come back to see him.
If, he says, the foot is bothering me, then I shouldnt walk on it. I can stop wearing the boot unless I begin to feel pain and today, when he touched the area where its broke, there was some pain and thru out the evening its been hurting.
So, I am going to wait to see if the foot is no longer sore on Monday, and I might give that walk a try.
I am feeling defeated, even with that bit of news, due to the fact that I know 20 minutes twice a week, isnt going to give me any kind of calorie burn to help me get back to losing weight.
But, I know it will help me to ease back into my walking.
The doctor didnt seem to optimistic about it and part of me wonders if he simply said yes to my question about walking, because deep down he suspects the bone isnt going to really heal on its own and that surgery will eventually be required!!!
I am just sick of it all!!!
I am sick of the injustice my friend has had to endure and I am sick of my body doing this to me!!!
I was being good to my body, I was eating healthy and walking and drinking water and taking my vitamins, so why wasnt my body absorbing the vitamins?
Why did my body rebel against my attempt to make it healthier???
Why is all of this happening to me and why is it happening during the most stressful time in my life??
I feel so overwhelmed and almost like just going back to being a big fat lazy slug sitting on the couch with a damn cookie in my hand!!!
I mean afterall, why try when the body obviously doesnt care.
Well, I guess that is just stinkin thinkin and the only thing I can do is workout in other ways and walk what little bit I can.
At least I will be outside in the sunshine for 20 mins and maybe if the freakin wind ever dies down around here I can actually get warm and enjoy it!!!
So, I guess thats the update, not much of one.
My body just refuses to heal itself....maybe now that some of the stress is behind me I can focus more on just exercising with my stretch band and recumbant bike and weights.
And maybe 8 weeks will make some difference for the positive.