Friday, April 12, 2013
I am so much better now. I have not wrote a blog in a long time because I was in a bad place emotionally and phsycally. I feel so much better now. I am back to my exercise rutine, I am eating healthy again. i am spending time with family again. I am looking out into the world again. For a good 9-10 months I was in a very bad place emotionally. I had hurt my sholder at work. Some things happenedat work and i was threatned by a customer that she was going to shoot me. I was scared all the time and I withdrew from EVERYONE outside my home. My family told me that they missed me and I just brushed it off because I didnt want to leave the house. I was scared and I felt safe at home. Just to get in the car to take the kids to school was a challange for me. I stoped going to the gym, but still payed for it. All my relationships suffered.
Well guess what!?!??! I have my life back!!!!
I am not scared anymore! I figured that I cant live life in fear, because anything can happen at anytime. So why live life in fear? Live life to it's fullest! I am walking as much as possable. I am going to the gym most days. I am looking out and spending time with my family. I am mending relationships. I am so much happier now. Yes I did gain a little weight while I was depressed, not sure how much, but I think it was about 10-15 lbs but I am not going to let it discourage me. I dont want to weigh myself because I dont want to get mad. I am focusing only on how I feel and how clothes fit me better. I think that is more healthier for me then the scale. I am really excited for this new part of my journey.
I NEVER left sparkpeople. I still logged on everyday. Just to get my points, lol. But I am glad I did. Because look at me know. I am back in full swing!