When I lost SparkPeople.com access I had gotten down to 203.0 which was fantastic. I was at my heaviest during this downtime on Wednesday at 211.6. Really pissed me off. Today I weighed (my official weigh in day) and I was at 210.2. So I am going back down again.
I was trying to figure out my calories while I was offline and never could get the hang of it without SP. So I was so thrilled to get back on Wednesday. Now I can see where I'm at. Thursday sucked - I blew it big time. Yesterday I was within my range so I was thrilled. I'm going to work at keeping it in range today. I'm heading out later this morning with my 85 year old Aunt. She needs to go to Wal-Mart and a couple other places so I know she'll want lunch out. That usually means someplace I wouldn't normally go that doesn't have good choices. I will get a lot of walking in today - both in the stores and with my dog after I get home.
Yesterday was a zero fitness day. I had to take the day off completely and give my body a rest. My foot is better but with this weather change all my joints were screaming out in pain. So I turned into a vegetable yesterday and just lounged around. Feeling so much better today.
I hate it being 85 one day and in the mid 40s the next. Yuck. Today's only supposed to be 58. Darn it anyway - I was so enjoying not having to wear a coat or jacket around. I even had a pair of shorts on the day it was 85 because the day before I was soaked with sweat when I got home.
Sometimes a set-back can give us that extra nudge to get back in the swing of things. I have less than two months until vacation and I'm so wanting to be in onederland by then. It's doable if I'll just get myself in gear and resist the food. I'm trying to get back out of the mindset that food is my friend when I'm depressed, bored, tired or upset in some way. It's been a constant battle for the last few years.
I've been doing good on my walking. I'm working towards being able to hike a little bit further than I did last year. My main concern is my asthma and blood sugar dropping. I have my glucose tablets and my inhaler so I'm hoping I can keep my act together better than last years almost disaster. I'm looking forward to going back to Carvers Gap and hitting the Appalachian Trail again. I've finally realized my knees and hips aren't going to get any better and I'm just having to deal with that. I'm hoping to go further but that's still iffy at best. I've been looking at places to hike in the Great Smoky Mountains National Park - there's tons of trails plus the AT there. Last year was the challenge. I know what I can do now and I'm ready to hit the trails. Unfortunately there's nothing much around here to go on. So I'll just wait until I go visit my brother in NE TN and see him and my best friends have planned for me! I know they're (my best friends) are looking for things that I can do as far as hikes are concerned. I know it's going to be great.
Things I need to do: try on summer clothes; get new shoes for walking/jogging (it's well over due for new ones).
I know if I can do this, so can you! We're all in this together - this journey to a healthier body and mindset. The benefits and payoff is great. What have you got to lose? I know I want to be healthier and more fit. I also know that there are some things I won't be able to change due to physical limitations and I'm finally getting that into my head to accept - it's hard because I want to do more than I can.
I'm looking forward to hitting 59 in September being healthier and more fit. I want to have even more energy. I want my health to improve. I need to get my numbers down even more on my blood sugar. I know my blood pressure is looking better even if it was higher than I wanted my last visit due to the severe pain I was in. I want my cholesterol levels to be at a point where my doctor says "wow, you've done well". I want to see my weight go down. I'm about half way to my goal weight of 145. That's not set in stone - it's in the healthy range which is where I would like to be.
Look in that mirror at yourself. Love yourself now - don't put it off until tomorrow or some day down the road. You will be so much happier if you say "ok, I know I have work to do but I am a beautiful person now and always. I want this for me. I want to be healthier and more fit. I am a special person. I am not a failure because God doesn't make failures or mistakes. I love me." I thank God every morning for allowing me another day and I want to be the best I can be. I'm here still for some reason - I think maybe it's to help other people in need. Maybe?
No matter who you are or where you are in this journey, please don't ever be so discouraged as to think you're a failure. You're not. You are loved. Whether I know you or not, I think you're fantastic! You're each special in your own way. Each of you have special abilities or talents - sometimes we forget this - use them! Don't think of all you have to do to get to where you want to be but think of all you have accomplished. Those accomplishments mean something so don't discount them ever.
Sorry this is so long and I've rambled on. Have a fantastic Friday and weekend. Enjoy your life to the best of your abilities. I know I am. I finally decided to live last year. I've done things I never dreamed of doing when I was in my 20s and 30s. So live a little. Love a lot. Enjoy life!
I know we can do this!!!! I'm rooting for you!