Thursday, April 11, 2013
I have the munchies. CRAZY, mindless munchies.
There are plenty of things I can and should be doing right now, but everything still has a variety of scrumptious, excessive fat content based images in my head. I WANT crap in a large, unhealthy portion. I went to the cabinet and grabbed two servings of Monster Mix Trail Mix; the content itself is a combination of good and bad: peanuts, raisins, and a variety of chocolate. One serving is 10 grams of fat. Double that and I'm asking for it. Not necessarily physically, but emotionally - I know I won't feel satisfied and then I'll feel guilty.
So I returned half of my portion to the container. This left me with one (tiny, given my craving) serving of delicious trail mix. This also brings my daily nutrition back to a reasonable and consistent account across the board. I enjoyed the treat and am definitely full, but I still want to graze... so I searched "munchies" on SP and I found I'm not alone.
One major suggestion is to keep your hands busy (check) and write it all out (check), but there were also a few questions I should ask myself:
1. Are you bored?
2. Are you worried?
3. Are you upset/sad/down?
4. Are you REALLY HUNGRY?!
1. NO. Definitely not.
2. Yes. About my extensive distraction with the munchies AND the work I am now NOT doing because I'm avoiding the kitchen.
3. Strangely, yes. I didn't think I was. In fact, I have been enjoying myself lately, but everything I have been putting off is starting to set off alarms in my head right now. This is partially because I should be doing some of that right now, but otherwise I think I am upset with myself for procrastination reasons.
4. NO. Not even a little. In fact, my stomach hurts a bit.
I didn't think this would help, but it did. Those questions were legit and I didn't even realize it. I'm frustrated with my level of inactivity from a work perspective. I should have seen this coming too. Previously I had aired some concerns about letting work deadlines (self imposed) slip as a result of being so invested in a healthy lifestyle and I guess this is me figuring it out.
Is balance ever really attainable?
At least I don't want to eat anymore...