Yay tomorrow's Friday!! It's been an exhausting week coming back from a nice little weekend away.
Last weekend I took Josh to Milwaukee for his birthday! We stayed at the Aloft in MKE and wow is it an awesome hotel! and bonus, it was right by all the places we wanted to go there! So Friday around 3 we got in, I showered, we relaxed with some interesting beers we bought. I had a very dark vanilla oatmeal stout, a very bitter IPA and then a couple Shock Top Honeycrisp apple beers (omg amazing!!) So anyway, that mix of beers is only the beginning to a VERY drunk crazy Friday night with my and my boy in Milwaukee.
Long story short: We hit Water Street brewery for a beer sampling and fish fry. Watched some of the Buck's game and headed out onto Water Street (huge street of unique bars) We were pretty drunk by the time dinner was over, but we kept wandering around and trying some local unique beers. I literally had about 25 types of beers in me by the end of the night. 15 were probably just samples, but still! End of the night kind of blew up as we got into a stupid fight about our future, and after tears, arguing and I can't even remember what else we passed out.
We both woke up at 10 a.m. with brain splitting headaches and plenty of regret and guilt. But we took aleve, chugged water, apologized and went back to sleep until 2 p.m.! Lesson learned: don't get wasted the first night of a fun vaca! We both felt terrible most of the day. So for 3p.m. lunch/dinner we hit the spot that (according to Food Wars on travel Channel) has the best burger in Milwaukee. If I was not so hungover I might have agreed. It WAS amazing though. 3 large waters, a canadian delicacy called "Poutine" and 2 burgers later we moseyed back to the hotel room for a little relaxation before the Bucks game. COme 5 p.m. we got out and walked around Milwaukee for a while on the Riverwalk- it was great!! Then we hit the Bucks game.
Now i've never been a big basketball fan, but I had a BLAST at the game! Basketball games have a lot of humor in them and I laughed a lot and just enjoyed being with josh at his first basketball game! Afterwards we walked to Buffalo Wild wings for a late night snack. Mmmm wings! And 3 more waters.
We were in bed around 12 after a seriously long day. Then oddly I woke up at 6:30 in the morning and was fully awake. So what did I do? I went to the mfing hotel gym! Josh was like "WTF you're crazy" but I felt the drive to run, so i did. AAAANd I was still hungover. After 2 miles I had to stop becuase nausea from dehydration was so intense. But I chugg chugg chugged an put in another mile. 5K on a Sunday morning sounds okay to me.
Unfortunately I did not get in my long 10 mile run last week. Very bad news. On Monday it was super rough to run.
Yesterday I did 6 miles. It was the hardest 6 miles i've ever done! I couldn't seem to catch my breath and my legs felt like lead, heavy and stiff! It was so hard. My sucky time was 75 minutes on the dot. I walked a few times for a few minutes each. Terrible! I am hoping that my 10 mile run on Sunday isn't like last night.
However, on the upside my weight this morning was the lowest since January! 204.8! My lowest "recorded" weight is 204.1. Lowest weight I've seen on the scale is 201.6 I believe. And with a great weekend and keeping drinks/bad food to minimum I might just get to 203 by next weigh in! I want to see ONEderland so god dam bad you guys. I feel it's SO close! I can't wait to tell everyone that after 2.5 stupid years I've finally lost 100lbs. And then I want the next 10 to come off with ease so I can see 180 sometime before ... like 4th of july!
My head's in the game. I'm feeling good. About everything in my life. Things with Josh and I have gotten so much better, I myself have gotten so much better through counseling and medication. I do have bad days, but I am determined to stay positive and keep the things I love and enjoy in the front of my mind. Really embrace who I am, what I love, what I enjoy and what my life can be!
Weight means scarce to nothing to me compared to all the things i've been dealing with personally. If you're not happy with who you are or your life at the weight you are now, losing weight will only make things come up. You can't bury your issues in fat when you're not covered in it. Being HEALTHY is a large part of someone's happiness, but the actual weight and way you look- that may change, but who and what you are inside will still be there. You might feel more free to let yourself show which is an amazing feeling! But it's not a magic solution to being happy.
I love running and working out. Working on my body has become my hobby. I enjoy fitness! More than nutrition. Through this journey I've learned to love something that's SO important to the human body that I feel the rest of my life will be great. If I can lose 100lbs, I can do anything. If I can run a half marathon I can do anything! If I can learn to love and be loved, I can also do anything. :)
Here are some pictures from this weekend!:
Drinking in the room- nasty IPA blech!:
Out for dinner/Drinks Friday night (pre-drunk)
Pour your own Beer at your table!! (a little drunk here):
The next day on our walk:
AMAZING Fruit whipped cream shortcakes I made for Josh's Bday dessert:
The treadmill after my stupid run last night: