I fell for it yet again. I let my inner
convince me to make bad choices on the road. I think my inner fatty is trying to convince me that if I am in a different area code, calories don't count. I did a good job limiting my snacking but that is due to the Invisalign. The problem was with dinner. The first night there I went to Johnny's Steakhouse where I began my meal with fried calamari, focaccia bread and a large glass of moscato. I probably should have stopped there. BUT, I ordered chicken parmigiano with angel hair pasta. As delicious as it was, I only ate half (and a third of the calamari) but considering how large the portions were, it was like having one full serving of regular food. Did I mention I finished the entire gee golly breadbasket?
I started day two with a sugary coffee and sliced apples. I had a snack of trail mix. Then, the Regional Manager brought in pizza for lunch. I should have known. I had a slice of beef and a slice of cheese. I didn't snack anymore but then I went to Cheesecake Factory for dinner. A glass of sangria, an order of potstickers, and half a plate of breaded chicken and mashed potatoes later, I officially crossed over into gluttony. But it gets worse. Please don't judge. I promise I will clean up my act. I took home a slice of lemoncello torte.
I did put in a good workout on day 2 in the hotel gym. Today marked day 3 and I was much better, but it almost didn't end up that way. I stopped at WalMart to get breakfast and snacks and a healthier alternative for lunch and I found myself in front of the
. I think it would be a good idea to take donuts to my class and begin looking at the ones I like. In the past year, I have had TWO donuts and they were eaten on the same day. Before I could even reach in to grab the boxes, the good angel on my shoulder tells me, "These donuts are an excuse for you to sabotage yourself. Stop." I straightened up and said aloud, "I don't need these damn donuts!" and I walked away. I grabbed myself a snackpack with apples, cheese cubes and pretzels for 230 calories. I did grab a jar of Vanilla Mocha Starbucks coffee and a prepared salad for lunch. They catered in Jimmy John's and I had 1/3 of a turkey sandwich, a bag of fun size Doritos (130 cal) and I ate my salad. I did not stop for dinner or snacks on the drive back to Omaha (2.5 hrs). Instead, Derrell and I stocked up on fruits and veggies for snacks and for my juices (cucumbers, broccoli, grapefruit, apples). I also made Olive Garden's Zuppa Toscana soup
It is not the best with the cream and potatoes, but it isn't that bad. I am chugging my water and I will be attacking the gym tomorrow and going forward. Despite all these things, I can't keep my danggone pants up. And there were folks in my workshop that have not seen me in a year and they were amazed by my transformation. Everyone was like, "How much weight have you lost???" WOW, you look great!! What have you done??" I appreciated it but made sure not to bask in the glow of the compliments since I was quietly binge eating.
This weightloss thing is a topsy turvy whackadoo process. You can never gauge what each day will be like. Sometimes you are devout in your practices and you live for losing weight. Other times, you just want cheesecake. I am floating between those two concepts because I refuse to go back to where I was but I also refuse to make my entire life about dieting.