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AM GETTING VERY FRUSTRATED

Wednesday, April 10, 2013

WELL i GAINED ANOTHER POUND. I AM READY TO JUST GIVE RIGHT UP BUT GOD IS PUSHING ME HARD AND PUSHING AND PUSHING.I HAVE TO LOOK AT HIM RATHER THAN AT FOOD. I AM LETTING THE DEVIL RULE ME AND I JUST KEEP SINNING AND SINNING WITH EVERY BITE THAT I TAKE, DAMN THE DEVIL I AM GOING TO BEAT HIM STARTING RIGHT NOW YES I AM STARTING AGAIN AND AGAIN UNTIL I GET IT RIGHT OR MAYBE I AM TOO STUPID GOD IS STANDING THERE WITH HIS ARMS WIDE OPEN TO COMFORT ME AND I WALK RIGHT PAST AND EAT A DAM COOKIE AND ANOTHER ONE AND ANOTHER ONE I WOULDN'T EVEN SHARE THEM WITH THE DOG(THERE ARE NO LONGER ANY COOKIES IN THE HOUSE TO TEMPT ME- MR DEVIL!!)AM I GOING TO LET THE FREAKING DEVIL DECIDE MY FATE AND WIN--NO NO NO I GOTTA STAND STRONG I AM A BRANCH ON JESUS'S VINE I WANT PRUNED BY GOD NOT THROWN IN THE FIRE. I CAN DO THIS GOD I HAVE TO YOUR WAITING FOR ME TO COME TO YOU FOR HELP!! WELL HERE I AM LORD I GIVE MYSELF TO YOU AND I FEEL THE WARMTH OF THE HOLY SPIRIT. IT'S GONNA BE ALRIGHT I AM SAFE NOW.I CAN FEEL GODS ARMS AROUND ME AS I CRY-HE WILL HELP ME I AM LOST AND HE HAS FOUND ME I AM GOING TO DO THIS THIS TIME I HAVE TO GOD LOVES ME--I LOVE GOD HE IS MY STRENGTH. i WILL BE OK I GOTTA BE FOR HIM AND ME!!
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  • BLUE_48
    Hang in there! We can all do this Together!
    1332 days ago
  • KATHARINE1948
    it doesnt help to put your self down . you know your problem .
    temptation, we all cross that path. so you removing the temptation from the home. attitude you wont give up .

    smile . your loved by many . keep on going . you may have bad days and good ones .That is my testimony.

    so here we are with the good , bad & ugly
    lets look towards the Good emoticon
    1332 days ago
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  • 2HAMSDIET
    I use to joke about foods being evil. Then I read something that got me thinking. If I eat that food labeled as evil does it make me feel bad and evil...Ok so.. No food is evil just some are better fuel then others. God made us free to choose so why am I choosing that food now. Am I hungry? Does it bring back good memories? Am I bored or upset. Or do I just want a cookie. Yes I use those questions before I eat. Now I love to bake, the smells, fond memories of times doing it with others... Guess what I bake up a storm and most of the time not one bite of it is ever eaten in the house. Then I have the joy of giving it to others. I no longer call any foods or my joy of cooking Evil. Don't give up. We are born to grow and learn until the day we die. Our struggles with our human nature are great ways to bond with others. So be kind to yourself and show how Gods love shines through you. It this was easy we would all be skinny. emoticon
    1333 days ago
  • DONNA19711
    Luann remember this journey is one step forward, and two steps back. We have to take this journey one day at a time. God loves you for who are not what you look like. You can do this.
    1333 days ago
  • PENNYLYNN73
    Luann, you can do it. Please don't get down on yourself. don't call yourself names. God loves you no matter what as you should love yourself. There will be days where we struggle but you just keep your eyes focused on Him and spend some time at His feet and you will get your groove back! emoticon
    1333 days ago
  • ISLANDNESTER
    Something that works for me almost every time when it comes to the sweets I love, is to go brush and floss my teeth.My mouth feels fresh and I usually will not be tempted to over ride that good feeling.I still can make the choice to do it,but it's part of my armor that helps me win most of the battles anymore with sweets! Now to find one for my beloved cheese! emoticon Take care and please stay with it,I don't know you,but I DO KNOW YOU WOULD BE MISSED! emoticon
    1333 days ago
  • JOANIE69
    Hi Luann,
    I have been where you are and I am awed by the loving responses from your Christian friends here on SP. I too despaired of losing the weight (again & again) and shed many tears and berated myself. But here I am at age 69, and DETERMINED to WIN this war. Like your friends have said and you as well: God loves you. Treat yourself like you would treat a close friend, and you would never tell them they are stupid or cannot do this. Take it one step and one day at a time, remembering that as His child you are living already for eternity, where we shall live unaware of how long "it" is (re: time), and enjoy the presence of God...available to us now 'in measure' as we abide in Him. Brush yourself off and get back up and persevere. Get rid of trigger foods if you can; (my DH has to have his cookies and candies and anything else sweet he can get his hands on - so I have to have them in the house.) What works for me is to have an equally inviting stash of low-cal goodies I can turn to. There are several salty treats on the market for 100 cals...cheaper to buy a large package and pre-package them yourself though. I also find it helps me when I record my breakfasts here, to fill in the snacks with what I have available, and then I can look forward to them without a guilty conscience, because then I watch what else I eat that day - so as not to go over the allotment. I like the "Free" Cool whip as I can stir fruit in for my own ice creamy treat. I love fruit and after a month or less, you never crave a dessert type treat - once you learn to love fruit instead. I also use the diet Jello and you can stir in 2 cups of the Cool Whip free to 1 1/2 cups of 'the hot water in the jello' mix, for a nice creamy low cal treat. I also like the Laughing Cow cheese triangles. At such low calories I like 2 at bedtime...they are delicious. Baby carrots are so good..I don't even want dip with them anymore! Also those small grape tomatoes...they burst in your mouth with flavour. So if you find snacks and treats that YOU enjoy, and stock up on them as others have said...you can beat this puny sugar demon! Blessings to you, Joanie
    1333 days ago

    Comment edited on: 4/10/2013 8:11:05 PM
  • IKACEY
    Luann: God loves you and He also, becaise He loves you gives you challenges to refine you and help you grow into the lovely Christian you are and are becoming. Each temptation is a chance to choose what to do. But there are reasons people give in. First of all there are always set backs or bumps in the road. Life is a dance you take a step back, and then you go two forward again. It takes time and practice and persistance to finish the journey. Don't give up and make the Devil dance with joy, choose to get up dust yourself mentally off and get right back on your path and make the angels shout for joy!
    You can keep your "trigger" foods out of the house and you can also plan those foods you really want into your nutrition with smaller healthy portions, that maybe you can have everyso often so you don't get a feeling of you can never have this food you like ever again. Also understanding your temptation triggers is a good way to get set free with the truth You may want to read this article:
    Finding Inspiration In Your Biggest Temptations: Change the Way You Look at Obstacles on Your Journey
    -- By Stepfanie Romine, Staff Writer
    http://www.sparkpeople.com/re
    source/motivation_articles.asp?
    id=1356
    Never go beating yourself down because you weren't perfect. Only the Christ is! Let His love shine through you and try to see yourself as the beautiful loving child that needs to be shaped and is trying so hard to grow as He directs that you are!
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  • SANDRALEET
    I cut out sweats the rest I ate One thing at a time Then started walking 3 meals a day in my calorie range I am for 1500 to 1600 calories a day walk 3o minutes 5 days a week at your speed you will pick up as you get stronger God loves you He wants you to love your self to You are special He only made one like each of us
    1333 days ago
  • JOHGLO2011
    You know LuAnn, God isn't disappointed in you - he loves you! He made us and He knows how prone to mistakes we are! Be kind to yourself, talk to yourself like you would to a dear friend. It isn't over until you quit trying. You can do it! We love you and so does God! emoticon
    1333 days ago
  • KYLIESCHELLE
    Luann, You can do this! Keep your chin up. You are not stupid, we all slip from time to time because we are human. Keep the faith...you will be successful!

    Hugs,
    Michell
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  • BESCATS
    First of all, don't put yourself down. That will only depress you, and when depressed we usually go to food for comfort.

    No saying "the devil made me do it". You can't blame him for everything. Some blame falls on us, and us alone.

    If you are like most, you can't have those tempting foods in the house ~ I know I can't. Find foods that you like, that will satisfy you as a snack. My "go to" foods are usually strawberries and grapes.

    God loves us no matter what we do. emoticon emoticon
    1333 days ago
  • EDITOR
    LuAnn, you are not stupid. You turned to God and in turn He ministered to you and gave you the courage that you can lose this weight. It is an overwhelming amount to lose and you may not make it completely by next year, but we know who wins, and it ain't the devil.

    God bless you! emoticon emoticon
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