Wednesday, April 10, 2013
Is it possible to feel positive and encouraged (Spark Friends have been overwhelmingly wonderful!) and depressed at the same time? I think I usually tend to be one or the other. I can't express enough how happy it makes my heart feel to see a comment here or there or to know that someone is checking in with me...the fact that people do seem to really care. However, I am also feeling very stressed and very overwhelmed with everything happening at home/school. I have started noticing my coping behaviors coming out (organizing/cleaning, avoidance of problems, hiding out in my room). I want to cry and let it all out, but when that feeling hits, it is never at a good time (driving, walking kids to class, etc.) I love walking and running on my treadmill because for that 20-30 minutes I can "run away" from some of my problems and I feel pretty good about myself. I am up and moving! As soon as I step off of it, it all comes crashing back down.
I have decided to take a "mental health" sick day next Monday. I desperately need some rest and time to clear things out of my house both mentally and physically. It's hard for me to focus.