Wednesday, April 10, 2013
I need to vent. I'm sitting here eating chocolate flavored rice cake after chocolate flavored rice cake - and I know that's not the answer.
My husband's brain and shoulder injuries are just so much to manage. The poor man is going insane - but I'm afraid he's taking me with him. He can't do anything anymore.
~Last night I took him to get an MRI and it was too painful for him to continue. We had to reschedule.
~The dr that handles his pain med won't help him b/c they didn't order the MRI. ~The dr that handles the MRI hasn't called me back yet - but she's not a big fan of pain meds. We want her to prescribe something massive just to knock him out for the test.
~I'm also trying to work with a surgeon for his arm/shoulder and an NeuroPsychologist that needs to do this 6 week evaluation on his physical and cognitive skills.
~That's due to start next week and the surgery occurs in the middle of that.
~His being unable to use his arm for testing will then stall the NeuroPsychologists evaluation.
~He's been increasingly more suspicious and getting paranoid. Last week he thought I was plotting to kill him and stuff him into a sofa I was replacing (for his comfort, I might add)
~I told the NeuroPsych this - and now he's worried that my husband is delusional and will be unable to complete the evaluation!
~He wants me to get Chris in to see the Psychiatrist ASAP and decide if he should be on some type of psychotropic drug
~I called his therapist and she got us an emergency appointment for next week - but haven't told my husband yet. He's gonna flip out on me.
~A significant amount of this is occurring while I'm at work
~One of my employees was promoted to a new site and hasn't worked here since February. They are still short 1 person at the new site, so our "floater" that should be covering HERE, is working at the new site too. So I'm a person short.
~I've hired someone, but they didn't pass the back ground check for some reason. I had to go back to the drawing board.
~I hired another person yesterday, fingers crossed she is cleared to start within the next two weeks.
~one of my other employees is pregnant - and having some difficulties. We are all really worried for her - and she's had doctors appts every day this week.
~my schedule is chock full of doctors appts, so I am really behind on work.
~when I get home the tension is so high that we seem unable to even smile at the simple stuff. I frequently want to vomit from the pain in my stomach - and I know that's just stress.
I've just reached a point where I feel completely useless. I know this will pass. I know we will be stronger for it someday. I have faith that God has his reasons for all of this.
But right now, I just wanted to stop mindlessly shoving chocolate rice cakes in my mouth and writing this out did help. So thank you!