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I'm having a rough day

Wednesday, April 10, 2013

I need to vent. I'm sitting here eating chocolate flavored rice cake after chocolate flavored rice cake - and I know that's not the answer.

My husband's brain and shoulder injuries are just so much to manage. The poor man is going insane - but I'm afraid he's taking me with him. He can't do anything anymore.
~Last night I took him to get an MRI and it was too painful for him to continue. We had to reschedule.
~The dr that handles his pain med won't help him b/c they didn't order the MRI. ~The dr that handles the MRI hasn't called me back yet - but she's not a big fan of pain meds. We want her to prescribe something massive just to knock him out for the test.
~I'm also trying to work with a surgeon for his arm/shoulder and an NeuroPsychologist that needs to do this 6 week evaluation on his physical and cognitive skills.
~That's due to start next week and the surgery occurs in the middle of that.
~His being unable to use his arm for testing will then stall the NeuroPsychologists evaluation.
~He's been increasingly more suspicious and getting paranoid. Last week he thought I was plotting to kill him and stuff him into a sofa I was replacing (for his comfort, I might add)
~I told the NeuroPsych this - and now he's worried that my husband is delusional and will be unable to complete the evaluation!
~He wants me to get Chris in to see the Psychiatrist ASAP and decide if he should be on some type of psychotropic drug
~I called his therapist and she got us an emergency appointment for next week - but haven't told my husband yet. He's gonna flip out on me.
~A significant amount of this is occurring while I'm at work
~One of my employees was promoted to a new site and hasn't worked here since February. They are still short 1 person at the new site, so our "floater" that should be covering HERE, is working at the new site too. So I'm a person short.
~I've hired someone, but they didn't pass the back ground check for some reason. I had to go back to the drawing board.
~I hired another person yesterday, fingers crossed she is cleared to start within the next two weeks.
~one of my other employees is pregnant - and having some difficulties. We are all really worried for her - and she's had doctors appts every day this week.
~my schedule is chock full of doctors appts, so I am really behind on work.
~when I get home the tension is so high that we seem unable to even smile at the simple stuff. I frequently want to vomit from the pain in my stomach - and I know that's just stress.

I've just reached a point where I feel completely useless. I know this will pass. I know we will be stronger for it someday. I have faith that God has his reasons for all of this.

But right now, I just wanted to stop mindlessly shoving chocolate rice cakes in my mouth and writing this out did help. So thank you!
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NOWYOUDIDIT 5/15/2013 2:06PM

    That is a lot to deal with. I'm so sorry. Saying a prayer for you. Hope things have improved. (((HUGS)))

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KATHARINEBRAY 4/11/2013 4:51PM

    I stand in agreement with all these prayers . this is overwhelming .
I ask Lord these prayers be granted in The name of Jesus . Lord I believe you are at work behind the scenes , You are the great Shepard .Nothing is to hard for you .
looking forward to hearing praise reports . I know Lord all things are in timing and divine appointments, I ask for a speedy relief . Thank You Jesus for Hearing all these
prayers and best wishes . In Jesus name

there is a song I love it . its Jesus seeing a tear fall , when its raining .
Lord bless this family may your face shine upon them . Holy spirit
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AVANELL 4/10/2013 8:10PM

    I'm so sorry to hear about all that you and your husband are going through! May God wrap His loving arms around you and carry you through this difficulty.

Father, I lift this couple up to You and ask that You would touch her husband and heal his body. Father, Jesus took stripes on His back to secure our healing so I pray right now that Your healing power will flow freely throughout his body. I pray for peace to come into the midst of this storm, in the Name of Jesus. Father, I thank You in advance for Your healing hand upon this man that restores him to wholeness. I ask You to relieve the pressure that has been mounting in this sweet lady's life. I pray for Your supernatural ability to deal with the issues that are facing her. I pray Your protection upon her and Your angels around her to help her through this time. Father, I ask You to bring an end to this ordeal in Jesus' name! Amen.

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MCFITZ2 4/10/2013 7:49PM

    You have a full plate (an overfull plate). Try to do something for yourself so that you feel like you have a handle on something. Short walk at lunch or before or after work. There are things over which you have no control. If you are like me you are at least mentally trying to get everything and everyone on tract and make things better. Deep measured breathing can sometimes help. I am glad that you were able to get a psy. appointment. My dh has some issues and I am so thankful that our mh clinic is so responsive. Delusions and paranoia are scary for you and him. Sending you mental blessings. emoticon

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RASPBERRY56 4/10/2013 4:21PM

    Oh, dear - I am truly worried about you as FALLENSHORT has mentioned.......you do need to take time for yourself........your husband's issues about having people visit, particularly those who are in a position to help *you* as well as him, need to be addressed......

I will keep you, your spouse and family in my best thoughts and wish you all the best!

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MELLIELOU140 4/10/2013 3:45PM

    Right now there is no one to help. We do not have any local family and he doesn't trust anyone in the house. He gets very upset when anyone comes into the house, even my Pastor. However, there is hope on the horizon: a doctor did write a script for a nurse 4 hours a day while I'm a work. The lawyer has it and is fighting with workers comp to get it approved. If that comes through - oh heavens, I will be so relieved! As it is he rarely eats when I'm not home. A visiting nurse came to the house once, before comp called and put a halt to it, and my husband did like the nurse (it was a man, a veteran like he is). The injury occurred in early March of LAST YEAR... working with workers comp can be very difficult.

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FALLENSHORT 4/10/2013 3:07PM

    My goodness sake, isn't there someone who can help you at home? What if your poor husband becomes violent? This is too much for one person to handle----you are in my prayers!!!

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MELLIELOU140 4/10/2013 2:45PM

    emoticon thank you for your prayers and hugs. I can feel them from here emoticon

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EDITOR 4/10/2013 2:24PM

    This surpasses all in a day's work, or for better or for worse.

Father, just bluntly and to the point as I can be, this is more than one person can handle. Send relief and aid. Minister unto this breadwinner and Proverbs 31 woman, and uphold her for she is close to collapse. We ask this in Christ Jesus' name and according to Your mercy. Amen

I hope others will leave here prayers and comfort and strength for you. I will be in prayer for your household. emoticon

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JGIRL5799 4/10/2013 1:57PM

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I will be praying for you!!!
That is a lot to deal with you can vent anytime!

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ONTHEPATH2 4/10/2013 1:53PM

    Hugs!!! emoticon

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