It's been an interesting week. My mini-vacation (a day and a half off from work) was AMAZING! I didn't really do anything exotic. I didn't get a lot accomplished that I had planned. I didn't mow, work on my car, or get teacher applications done, which was the original reason I had planned to take off.
But the cats and I relished the first official days of "open window" season. I did manage to organize my kitchen shelves, which included the dreaded Tupperware black hole. I tossed out some bags full of "I'll throw that away later" stuff like boxes, packing materials, and big empty cat litter packages. I got a bunch of cat beds and blankets washed. I switched out the filter on my room air filter. I got reacquainted with the couch quite a bit, running through some old episodes of the Biggest Loser on Hulu Plus while I spent many hours discovering a new world on Minecraft. I slept in.
Winry enjoying a dose of fresh Spring air.
But you know what? It's really OK. I feel so much better today mentally and physically. I'm proud of what I did accomplish, which is stuff I've been wanting to get to for months. I'm happy I didn't try to get everything done yesterday like I always used to do. I would take a day off, work like a slave all day to get a whole list of things done, and then be exhausted and resentful when my "day off" felt more like work than it should've been.
I've been in a major routine for 3 months now. Work, exercise, meal prep, and sleep. No major time on computer games. No time spent doing anything different. And while that was my longest streak ever of exercise and diet, I could tell I was starting to drag a bit. I needed a recharge moment. And that's exactly what the time off was about. Just kind of doing whatever I felt like doing. And while I felt like being lazy, I got more accomplished than I would have expected.
I ate a LOT of food...and not exactly healthy food either. There was a cheeseburger, chili-cheese fry, veggie pizza, and BBQ nachos involved. A lot of diet root beer. Handfuls of Kashi GoLean cereal. And there hasn't been much exercise. In fact, yesterday was the first day I could walk normally and pain-free after the ridiculousness from the weekend.
But that's OK too. Today I am definitely eating healthier. Oatmeal, greek yogurt, and cocoa roast almonds for breakfast. Probably a Subway roasted chicken sub, low-sodium chicken noodle soup, and an orange for lunch. Apple and low-sodium PB for a snack. Tonight, I'll either go to my parents house or grab some chicken and maybe do a stir-fry.
It's not that I feel like I'm forced back into this though. Honestly, it's because I WANT to. Don't get me wrong. The cheeseburger/fries and the nachos were fantastic. But 2-3 days of food my body isn't used to anymore is definitely making my stomach feel not quite as it should. I think a lot of that is because of all the cheese I've consumed ;) Definitely some bloating going on. But what's weird is that as of right now, I'm not really craving any of that food anymore. It was good, and now that I've eaten it, I don't really want it anymore.
This is something I'm really surprised at. And pleased. Because this gives me more confidence that I can have my moments of indulgence and that they will pass as long as I listen to my body. Today's foods aren't planned because I feel like I have to eat them. They are there because my body is saying, "That was great, and I enjoyed the debauchery same as you, but I need healthier food again." Last week's Captain D's meal started me down this line of thinking, and this has just reinforced it.
One last note. I don't know if any of you have ever heard of Brittany Gibbons, but I just found her blog and I ADORE her. She is an advocate of body acceptance and of being healthy and happy at any weight. I love all her blogs, but I think this one is a good one to post here: