Wednesday, April 10, 2013
I'm baaaack in the saddle again. I hope you read that in your best Steven Tyler voice cuz that's how I wrote it... With my Steven Tyler voice.
Anywho, I've been back on track since Saturday and I feel so much better! I've cut out dairy, gluten, refined sugar, corn and eggs. I went to an ND (naturopathic doctor) and they suggested that I may have a food sensitivity. I've been so reluctant to jump on the gluten-free bandwagon. And I was deluding myself with thinking I wasn't getting much gluten anyway but the more I spiraled out, the more pasta I was eating and the worse I was feeling. I know that sugar and carbs make me feel like crap. Maybe it's the gluten, maybe not but sugar and gluten had to do.
We went away for the weekend 2 weeks with friends we haven't seen in a long time so there were photos being snapped left and right. I had to look at so many hideous pictures of myself. But it was enough to wake me up. Time to get off the weight loss merry go around once again. I've come too far and have too far to go to give up.
So since Saturday I've been doing mostly smoothies and juices and a little bit of clean eating. Last night I had some chicken and salad. But I've been trying to avoid meat for the most part. I have no idea if I'm getting enough protein. I hear so many conflicting things on protein. My energy level is still low-ish. And that bothers me a little bit because I want to start working out again and I just don't feel like it. And my main problem is the lack of energy I have when I eat bad. So what's my problem now? Could be not enough protein, not enough calories, maybe my body is detoxing, maybe im just lazy and I need to just get up and do it. Maybe it's just that I'm so burnt out from work.
But I'm already down 5 lbs since Saturday. I'm sure I was retaining a lot of water because I'd been eating so bad so I'm not super ecstatic but at least I'm back to where I was so the damaged is reversed. And my cravings are A LOT more manageable. Not non-existent but I can cope.
My 10 year anniversary is next month and then after that we're going to visit family. We haven't been in 2 years. So I want to be really really good till then. I know there will be a lot of tempting food while we're home. I'd really like to be in the 150s by then so that's my goal. I hardly ever pull off my goals though so we'll see but so far every time I get tempted by food, I think about the trip home and the anniversary pictures I want.
I really need to start running again so I have a little bit of tone. I was hoping to be ready to run in a 5k by now but that is not happening. Oh well. I'm so ready for work to be over so I can give this my full attention but until then, I'll just do my best and try not to freak out.