First of all I would like to thank everyone for all the prayers and support for me, my husband's family and mostly for my SIL. She is having some good days but lots of bad days. Thank you for keeping her in your prayers.
Okay so to the Cup of Honesty.
I think I have been pretty open about my journey and shared the good times and the bad times. Today I am going to share the Big Bad Ugly!
Last week, I weighed in on Wednesday and low and behold, I was back at my starting weight. I am coming up on my
next month and I certainly didn't want to be back at my start weight. That isn't what we are here for! I mean 6 months ago, I was at a 40+ pound weight loss! Now I am looking at the same place I was a year ago. Now I am looking in the mirror
and seeing the Susan with the round swollen face. I am looking at the Susan that can't get into her clothes that she worked so hard to get into. I am looking at a tired and draggin' butt Susan.
So what am I going to do about it? Am I just going to go with the flow and keep going up in weight? Am I going to hide my head in the sand? Am I going to keep blaming everything and everyone around me? No, No, No!!!
Last Wednesday, after getting on the
, I stepped up to the plate and got back in the game! I reset my SparkPeople goals and decided to start fresh (really fresh). Resetting everything gave me some concern because it gets rid of all the tracking that I did. That included all the good tracking I did in the first few months of my journey. It made me think it through a bit. I decided that although I would be losing those past days of tracking, my recent tracking was like next to nothing. I went into my account and did what I had to do to start over! I can say that I breathed a sigh but it was a good sign. I felt like I was taking the first step to moving forward toward my goals.
Next, I prayed.
Okay I have said it before but here it is again. I am a Christian and I not ashamed of it and I am not going to hide it just to make someone like me or read/watch my blogs/vlogs. I prayed for help. I know that I will not be able to do this journey without God's help. I now know that I have the best health and fitness coach on my side!
The next thing I did was to start tracking. It was difficult starting to track after not doing it for a while but I have been sticking with it. I have only missed one day since Wednesday. I began drinking my water and trying to get up to 12 glasses a day.
Now this is a side bar on water consumption.
I have come to understand that you should drink 1/2 your weight in ounces of water. So for example a 350 pound woman (which I am dreadfully close to) should drink 175 oz of water. That is 22 glass of water. So that is why I have tried to get my water consumption up to like 20 glasses.
In the past, having to restart or being at my start weight again would have shut me down but I am not giving up. I am just using the fact that I am where I am (because of not doing the things I know I need to do) to get back on track and move forward! Do I call the past 11 months a bust? No, I do not. I had some really successful months. I have learned so much about exercise and eating healthy. I have learned that when I do the things I know I need to do consistently, I will lose the weight! I have learned to stay away from the mind games that I played in the past. I have learned that I need to keep a positive attitude and speak positive affirmations about myself and my journey. The huge thing is that I learned that I can't do this on my own!
So let me say this to any of you who have been struggling and are looking at a few added pounds or maybe you are like me and are looking at being at your start weight or anywhere in between, YOU can turn things around. You can begin again. There is no shame in having to start over. Maybe you just need to reboot in a few areas.
Maybe like me you just want to wipe the slate clean and begin fresh.
The main thing is to DO IT! The sooner you begin, the sooner you will reach your goals. The longer you keep sitting there wishing you were doing the work instead of DOING the work, the longer it will be before you reach any goals. The other thing is that the longer you sit there wishing and not doing the work, the more weight you will see come back on. Don't make the journey longer than it has to be. Get a grip NOW!
can be today. Okay tomorrow if you are on the west coast! lol
Set a goal. You could start with you Fast Break goals like I have. If you blog, go back and read some of the blogs you wrote when you were doing the work and get that motivation back! Reach out to your Spark friends! We are here to help and support you! Also if you blog, when was the last time you blogged or journalled and got really honest with yourself? Maybe it is time to do just that!
Okay so before this blog becomes a book, I am going to go. I have burned my tongue on this cup of honesty so I have got to cool things down with a huge bottle of water!