Wednesday, April 10, 2013
(Sept 22, 2012 w/ my sister-right)
Spring is here and for the first time since losing both my parents, I'm back. I feel good about myself, I feel like I can move forward with my life. I may have made bad choices in the recent past, but they've helped me through hard times.
I met someone who helped me realize that I was on the wrong path, in the wrong mind set and helped me find myself again. Once again I'm back to my beliefs and faith. I feel like that is the largest stepping stone I can have. My life preserver in an ocean of doubts. I need not to rely so much on other people as I do myself. It's nice to have cheerleaders, but they aren't necessary. They make the journey a little more enjoyable because you can share your successes. I have that, but I just need me and to follow through.
I do have high blood pressure again, but I'm working out 5-6 days a week and setting small goals. My first larger goal is set to end August 31st of this year. If I make it then that is fantastic. If I don't I'll still know that I tried and keep pushing forward. I love myself even when I'm struggling. Some days I spiral so far down I can't see the surface, but I know it's there. It's also nice knowing that the man I love is trying to pull me out no matter how deep I sink.
Anyways, I just wanted to say that I feel better than I have in a long time. Struggles and all, I'm back.