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Wednesday, April 10, 2013

(Sept 22, 2012 w/ my sister-right)

Spring is here and for the first time since losing both my parents, I'm back. I feel good about myself, I feel like I can move forward with my life. I may have made bad choices in the recent past, but they've helped me through hard times.

I met someone who helped me realize that I was on the wrong path, in the wrong mind set and helped me find myself again. Once again I'm back to my beliefs and faith. I feel like that is the largest stepping stone I can have. My life preserver in an ocean of doubts. I need not to rely so much on other people as I do myself. It's nice to have cheerleaders, but they aren't necessary. They make the journey a little more enjoyable because you can share your successes. I have that, but I just need me and to follow through.

I do have high blood pressure again, but I'm working out 5-6 days a week and setting small goals. My first larger goal is set to end August 31st of this year. If I make it then that is fantastic. If I don't I'll still know that I tried and keep pushing forward. I love myself even when I'm struggling. Some days I spiral so far down I can't see the surface, but I know it's there. It's also nice knowing that the man I love is trying to pull me out no matter how deep I sink.

Anyways, I just wanted to say that I feel better than I have in a long time. Struggles and all, I'm back.
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  • GABBY98_80
    Hey- I (and one other) are the only two active SP members on your welcome to SP team from 2009 (though we don't use that page) but I noticed you posted and wanted to say hi.

    I too joined SP had success and then suddenly lost my mom and ended up gaining it all back. Now that my head is above water I am starting to take it off again. Glad to see you are back.
    1772 days ago
    Glad you are feeling better! emoticon
    1774 days ago
    Glad to hear things are looking up for you! emoticon
    1774 days ago
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