Not Sure What I'm Going to do
Wednesday, April 10, 2013
Things keep getting worse. First off, my uncle is in hospital and from the looks of things, he's dying. The doctors have said that his lungs are in too bad a shape and nothing can be done.
Add to that, my grandfather (my uncle is his brother) has been having hallucinations, memory loss, and things keep getting worse with him. For months, we've been hoping for an answer and one came today. He has Alzheimers..and it's the fast moving one that is not stoppable or able to fix. I lost my step-grandfather to this same disease when I was in high school.
My father isn't handling this well, and my mom (as usual) is doing her dramatic nonsense..meaning I'm going to have to be strong for everyone until everything is done. I had to do something similar to this when my granny passed away.
Knowing me, I'm going to be reaching for food to keep the emotions locked away. The girl I'm in love with is across the country, and I've no one at my side to help and so afraid I'm going to resort to old coping mechanisms until I can vent without burdening family.
Dad's got PTSD and this...it's not good with his mix of issues so I know he's not going to deal well.