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Not Sure What I'm Going to do

Wednesday, April 10, 2013

Things keep getting worse. First off, my uncle is in hospital and from the looks of things, he's dying. The doctors have said that his lungs are in too bad a shape and nothing can be done.

Add to that, my grandfather (my uncle is his brother) has been having hallucinations, memory loss, and things keep getting worse with him. For months, we've been hoping for an answer and one came today. He has Alzheimers..and it's the fast moving one that is not stoppable or able to fix. I lost my step-grandfather to this same disease when I was in high school.

My father isn't handling this well, and my mom (as usual) is doing her dramatic nonsense..meaning I'm going to have to be strong for everyone until everything is done. I had to do something similar to this when my granny passed away.

Knowing me, I'm going to be reaching for food to keep the emotions locked away. The girl I'm in love with is across the country, and I've no one at my side to help and so afraid I'm going to resort to old coping mechanisms until I can vent without burdening family.

Dad's got PTSD and's not good with his mix of issues so I know he's not going to deal well.

Gods..why this?
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    Hi. I am sorry to hear the news about your uncle and grandfather. That is a lot to take in and deal with. Sallyanne just gave some great advice. Vent to us. We'll listen and support you as best as we can. Blogging might turn out to be a great stress release for you. Be strong and try to eat healthy things for your body. Chef Meg has some great recipes here on spark for healthier versions of comfort foods. Maybe you could give that a try. Also try to get in some exercise. It is great for your body and mind. And when all else fails just stop and take some deep breaths. That always helps me deal with difficult situations. Best wishes to you and your family. Take care of yourself.

    1804 days ago
    oh so sorry.

    Sorry about your uncle. He will be in a better place. Poor guy. Will your grandfather be going to a nursing home? Will your Dad have to take care of him at your mom and dad's place? It will be difficult.

    Well, it does sound like you are going to have to step back and be the strong one and suck it up! And it sounds like you ARE strong enough to do it.

    Just Vent to us. All you like. We'll listen and not judge.

    Get some crunchy, raw , fruit and veggies honestly eat your way healthy. Like, you know, you'll be getting out your frustrations by eatting, but by eating that kind o fstuff you'll be tricking yourself into getting healthy stuff in. and i don't know. but like for me, its that crunch that i go for when im frustrated. like raw celery, peas, string beans, carrots, jicama, fennell, ive gotten to really like grapes lately though they arent crunchy they have some " bite" to them.

    hang in there. and take some brisk walks when it really gets to you if you have a place to walk. emoticon
    1805 days ago
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