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Spark Sabbatical - a Healthy Viewpoint

Tuesday, April 09, 2013

I have learned so much from Sparks in the time I have been here, but I have also become 'obsessed' with Sparks: the points, the tracking, the posting, and reading everything I can in any spare moment I have.

Unfortunately, I have a perfectionist streak! If I do something I jump in both feet and do it with gusto. So ... I need to learn moderation. Since learning of my health complications a year ago, I have been obsessed and determined to "get healthy". I've made my life "busy", but not enjoyable. Life is streaking by and I'm not any healthier mentally (or physically).

Yes, the Spark tools are awesome. But everything should be in moderation. What good is a tool if it becomes an 'idol' in your life where it must be accessed and logged and read and involved in your every thought. It is not healthy. And that is what I have done. I continue to stress my body by doing this, which is the whole reason I gained weight! My stress levels at work were so out of control that I had to leave the "employment" world. The only thing I have done is exchanged work stress for calorie-count stress.

It's like owning a car. It's a useful thing to have, to drive and use, but if I'm polishing the shine out of it everyday, I'll soon not be driving the wonderful piece of equipment I have. I'll be too obsessively 'busy'! I've done the same with Sparks ... polishing all my points and calories, but missing the blessing of it's guidelines. And that's what they are ... guidelines. Learn from them. Incorporate them. But do not obsess about them!

Because I have become rather unbalanced and stressed about EVERYTHING I put in my mouth or EXACTLY how many steps or minutes I have done to burn calories, I will be more absent from Sparks. I'm taking a bit of a Sabbatical.

I still plan to eat well and exercise, but for the sake of living and enjoying my life. This body ... vehicle for my life will get "good fuel' and "regular maintenance". But I will enjoy the ride. I will relax and love myself a little more. I plan to park the car for a while, and enjoy the views of my wonderful life.

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    I wonder if they took a poll how many of us would say we tend be perfectionists and if there's a correlation (statistically) between weight struggles and perfectionism?

    Wise of you to recognize that even Sp can become almost a burden - something to consider for us newbies.
    1771 days ago
  • D-ABBY
    I agree and am the same way. I try to cut back, but my brain cannot do anything half-heartedly. I am planning a Spark break before long to get some perspective. Keep up the good work. Hugs!
    1778 days ago
  • SAL1512
    You have a good head on your shoulders so you will be able to find that balance.
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    1781 days ago
    Wishing you the best in finding the balance you need and deserve in life!
    1781 days ago

    Comment edited on: 4/10/2013 3:35:48 PM
    I hope you find the balance you are looking for. Love the car in your picture. I think I would walk around that thing a lot admiring it. emoticon
    1781 days ago
  • SWAZY33
    We are always searching for that balance in life...everyday is a learning experience and we can tweak our plans to fit our specific needs. Sounds like you are closing in on finding that balance!
    1781 days ago
  • YICHE12
    Yep, I get you. It can become an obsession if you let it. I am sttill reading quite a bit on Spark People but with the limitation of time, I have learnt to moderate my activities. What I do is check up on my teams, record my food intake and exercise and answer any email I may have received. Apart from this, I move on with my life.
    1782 days ago
    I totally get this. I've seen Sparks start to take priority and other vital elements of my life slip to the backburner as well. I also have concerns about weight loss and fitness constantly being on my mind. I want to submit to the Lord and be a good steward of my body without turning the good things that are happening to me physically into a new idol. You're in my prayers, sister! Trust God for the journey! And thanks so much for your transparency in this blog post.

    1782 days ago
  • FARIS71
    That sounds like a healthy idea. Stick with the principles - that's the important part. I kind of get the same way.
    1782 days ago
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